xinyi

2009-11-05T05:31:00.000-08:00

Hiya guys! I sincerly apologise for not updating this space. I do still blog, just that i don't post it out cos some fragment of thoughts are just not meant for the general public.

It's already the third week of school and so far so good. Apart from the 4 out of 5 8am timetable, everything else seems pretty alright. What have i been doing lately? I had a pincic with Sharon and Van, Slumber at Sher's, Bry and Mark's bday Chalet, Halloween party in school and in church... Recent events pictures can be found on my Facebook! :D

Anyw, today is quite an awesome day cos we had One World Day in school. It's like this exhibition that showcases the different Asean countries and their rich cultural heritage. We sampled different food, learnt how to make korean paper doll and took photos in different ethnic costumes. After that, me and Sher went to this Hindu temple in Chinatown for our Understanding Cross Cultural Diversity project. It's an eye-opener to us and i would definitely appreciate the importance of religion harmony after seeing how different everyone is.
After that, we went to catch My Sister's keeper with the rest of the bimbs, Faris, Kel and big Shaun. I've never cried as hard in a cinema and this is so much sadder than Titanic or The notebook! I tried controlling my sobs but it's like so out of control cos it's really really sad. You should catch it to know what i mean! Even the guys teared!

I've always wondered if there is a book written about my life and if each day is like a chapter, today's title would be something like 'Discovering differences, Appreciating Today'. It seems like today's theme is exploring and expriencing different ethnicity, religion and background. It's a very wierd thing. Only can i fanthom how precious my homeland, my faith, and good health are to me after i've seen another side of the coin. I think people tend to take things for granted when we are in our comfort zone and everything seems like it's suppose to be that way. But can you imagine yourself to be born handicap/sick in another less fortunate country where there is no religion freedom? Shudders shudders.

And after watching My Sister's Keeper, i think death is not as scary. It's the letting go part that's painful. Does it occur to you that you're going to die one day, that you'll have a funeral in the future. What are your regrets if you're going to drop dead tomorrow? What will people say of you at your funeral? Will your friends turn up? Who's going to remember you? What will people's memory of you be?

But still, before that day comes, we should all live our life to the best of our abilities. There's this cliched saying: live life as if it's the last. What will you do if today is your last day on earth?

P.S: Don't crack your brain too much, it's just rhetorical questions that's not worth the funeral of your brain cells.

:D Good day peeps!

2009-10-09T07:32:00.000-07:00

"Single women often see themselves as sitting on the shelf
while life passes them by, or as sitting on the bench while
others play the game. They do not realize that they are
wasting the most important time of their lives, they are
robbing themselves of great joy and reward, they are
robbing their future husbands of a more virtuous woman,
and they are robbing God of a servant through whom He
desires to do great things."

The Godly Woman-Becoming Esther by Charo and Paul Washer

So true, so true. I chanced upon this old article in my email and the truthfulness of it never fail to struck me. Many too often i heard people lamenting at the sorrows of being single and fear of being left on the shelve. But then, instead of going around searching for 'potential targets' and 'gathering experience', why not learn to enjoy it? Singlehood is a good time where we can learn to serve and love those around us, build strong fellowship with people around, cultivate values like patience and learn to trust God for his provision.

Till the season, do not stir up nor awaken love untill it pleases.

Feel free to drop me a message if you want the whole 2pg article. I believe it's applicable to the guys too! :)

2009-10-06T07:18:00.000-07:00

Some fragment of thoughts while travelling on the train. It's so amazing to just observe your fellow communters and wonder about the person they are, the life they live and the home they go back to everyday. You never know how the person sitting next to you might be connected in a way or another. I once heard this theory that a stranger is link to another by 7other intermediate friends. I don't think there's a fixed number of people on how people are link but the web of connection between people is simply fascinating. I have a very vivid imagination and one of my favourite pastime is to observe what people are wearing, alighting, doing and conjur up a story for them. This shrivelled-up looking granny wearing a sad frown is abandon by her kids and live a sad life alone, while collecting cardboard for a living and another chap at the next cabin is probably some rich boss, who made his fortune by selling organic vegetable but decided to take the train to do his part to fight carbon dioxide emission.

Life is like a masquerade party. Each a mask, a different disguise. Some the life of the party, some a passive onlooker. A mask to beautify, to hide, to pretend.

Beneath every adult lies a kid.
Beneath every bad guy lies a kind nature.
Beneath evert steel facade lies a soft heart.
Beneath every confident lies insecurity.
Amidst the crowd lies lonliness.
Beneath every strong front lies a yearning for protection.
Under the awkard shuffling lies a need to be accepted.

What's underneath your masquerade mask?

2009-09-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

Woohooo. I just went through a mind throbbing 700++ comments on Sun's newest hit, Fancy Free on Youtube. As usual, there's the whole love-hate comments and i could almost hear the declaration of war cry between the antagonist and protagonist. The fiery darts flew back and forth, fresh red blood spured out and many more valiant soldiers join in the fight, determined to protect their conviction.

As a kah poh, how can i miss out the fun? I want to give my two cents worth too! Putting down whatever religious background/church background/singaporean blood, I like the music video, frankly. The whole theme of amusement park and the catchy music makes me wanna groove to it. But then things aren't that simple, it's not a matter of just liking the music if i put my Christian personna and Singaporean personna back on. People do look at things through their tainted lens. There's always this expectation of people to behave in a certain manner if they fall under a certain catergory. If people don't behave according to the way they ought to, our judgemental side takes over. *wag the finger, shake your head, do the lizard sound* But sometimes, i feel that people might be too quick to judge. What's on the surface and prevalent to our naked eye might not be the truth. Many times, we need to look at the whole situation, whole package to evaluate something. Moreover, people's definition of what is good or bad differs very much. Why impose your standards upon others?

In any case, i'm glad there's critism in Sun's work. If not, there would not be any improvement. Be it jealousy or real heart-felt opinions, i'm sure it'll be a good driving force for people to work even harder and at the same time 'humble' a person. As in, if all the comments you received were flowery, honeyed comments, you won't grow in an unrealistic world. I'm not Miss congenality, trying to promote world peace nor do I live in a fairy tale world surrounded by pony and live on cotton candy. Very much like you, i'm not perfect and very much ordinary. I fail many times! But I like failing, not because i'm a pyschopath but because i can learn something from my fall. Even though it might be painful, at least i learn not to repeat the same time again.
This is a pretty quote i found on the web.

The greatest mistake you can make in life is to continually be afraid you will make one.
Elbert Hubbard

In any case, let's strive towards being a mature human beings who's able to balance and see different perspective of things. There's a reason why God created 2 ears and 1 mouth. Listen twice as much as you speak! :)

Have an awesome weekend love!

2009-09-24T07:46:00.000-07:00

September Blues.

Today is a very melancholic day. I felt so dejected for no apparent reason. But then again, i enjoyed such emo moments bcos it can spark the creative spirit inside of me to compose poems to express and reflect my feelings. Better than to wallow in self-pity right. Deep is my melancholic, i managed to write 2 poem! I shall post 1 today and another 1 some other day :)

This is written when i was snuggling under my blanket in a state of half-conscious and half-dreaming mode during my afternoon nap.

Entitled: Cover

Under the covers i hide.
The little sanctuary, my place of refuge.
Smell of fresh blankets
Oh so strangely familiar,
in a comforting manner.

Under the covers i let myself go,
A place where there's no need to force up the corners of your lips,
where mask can be unveiled
and tears can escape freely.

Under the covers i dive,
From the cruel reality,
into a fantom of imagination.
where i can be a pirate
cruising through the mystic carribean sea.

Under the covers i ponder,
untying the knots of life's many doubts
and solving the puzzle of sticky situations
Yet sometimes perpelxed by the complexity.

Under the covers,
I mummured a prayer
Offering up my worries to someone high above.
For every whisper made,
I know my daddy God hears.

Under the cover,
I snooze soundly
For i know under the cover,
I'm covered.

2009-09-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

Hiya! I'm feeling so bored once again. Like totally so bored, very bored, extremly bored. I stayed home for 2 whole days! I'll feel better if i did anything productive, but a day went by with no climax. If my life is like a life support machine, it'll be one measuring a dead person's heartbeat.

Anyhoo, i got my results back for this sem! It's not exactly over-the-top-fantastic but i'm pleased i've made improvements. I got my first distinction in my poly life too! :) All glory be unto God!

I dunno what else i can blog about. I've been staring at this empty space for the past 20mins. And a picture paints a thousand words, and a action paints a thousand picture. Sho, i'll post two thousand words here to fill up the void.

This is BFF meet-up on thurs! Great food, great company, great fun :)

This is logis meeting/outing on saturday. Oh yes. I want to thank God for my promotion to log2! :)

And this is during Peggy's wedding on Monday. She look super radiant and it's a beautiful wedding :)

2009-09-14T07:05:00.000-07:00

Thank God for the awesome beyond awesome week!

Beyond all the material blessings and new opportunities, it's the promises of God that i'm really thankful of. I'll gladly share if you wanna know. :)

A glimpse of my material blessings!
I'm so looking forward to what lies ahead. The latter shall be more glorious than the former! Indeed, God is a faithful giver and He'll never shortchange us. We serve the same God and if He can do it for me, He can do it for you too! :)

'Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us.'

Eph3:20

2009-09-09T07:45:00.000-07:00

I'm so free but why am i not blogging?

IDontknow,IDontcare.

IJustwannadomyhair.

Do my hair

Today's a bad hair day. bad hair. Sit, Roll, Play dead! If only my hair can be trained like a pet. Then i'll go 'smooth hair, straight hair, curl hair, good hair' *pet pet* :)

Wouldn't it be cool if we could get some genes from Croachie the gah-zuah and infuse it into human the xiao ming. Ya know how cockroach can fly when they are pregnant. Then if we take that DNA of roachie and infuse it into Xiao ming's pregnant wife, then we don't have to give up seats for pregnant woman on trains and buses anymore! Pregnant woman will be flying everywhere. look, one's on the treetop, another's suntanning on the roof. Wait, Xiao Ming always die in car accident in my primary school textbook. Poor Xiao Ming's wife :(

Did you realise, 'Bed' really looks like a Bed. Pile on the fluffy pillows!

I've been reading fmylife and mylifeisaverage often. It's my hobby now! And the average word for Mlia is 'smell'. Reminds me of Mel. Mel Smell, Smell Mel, Mel Smell Mel. I miss Mel and Bling and Sher! :)

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HAPPY 090909!!!

2009-09-01T07:34:00.000-07:00

School's out, scream shout! *insert imagery of 15,000 screaming SP kids!*

It's V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N time!!
The long awaited break is finally here! I've been dreaming of it every night and day since it left me in April. Now, don't go away too soon cos i've got plans!

Today's the first day of vacation and i never felt more holiday-ish! I read this tragic romantic novel by a local writer in this gloomy rainy day and it's so shiok lah! The cliched-ness add extra chill to the freezing weather and oh the melancholic rain is the perfect backdrop. And guess what! The storyline is based at my neighbourhood. As in the male lead work at the shopping mall below my house and he died at the road i always go past. hahah. Ya know the predictive storyline where the leads are childhood sweetheart then one day the guy realise he got some mental illness where he will forget people and initiate a break-up. Then there's this whole woo-hah and drama mama of 'ahh! Don't leave me! I can change if there's a problem with me. we can work things out. Please. I still love you!' Then after that the girl realise the guy contracted such a wierd illness and tries all way to make him remember her. Then finally when he remember, they're suppose to meet at some place where they bury some love message under some grass on the same leap year 4 years ago and the guy met with a car accident on his way there.

Anyway, it's ok if you don't catch any ball. I'm just saying i would want to write a novel like that in future too. What are my other plans? I wanna go on a real holiday! Like to Bangkok! Omg omg. Imagine all the nice and cheap shopping, massage, manicure, crystal in the hair, seafood, plane rides we can do! :)))

Holiday is the time to eat, sleep, play and grow fat. And nope! I'm not going to have any 'stay-fit' or excercise plan. Why torture myself and pant like a cow when i can eat my way into turf/taff/tough(whichever it is) club. OK, You know i'm kidding! I'll try to cut down on my intake even if i don't excercise. Double-chins aren't that sexy ;)

Lemme see what else i can write about. hmmm. I like this kinda post where i don't have anything in particularly to blog about and just spout whatever rubbish that comes to mind. Ya know i usually like to organise my thoughts n eliminate irrelevant stuff before posting. Oh ya. I realise i dunno how to change my language mode into Chinese. I have this urge to just type something in chinese but i've been searching for the past thirty mins and still couldn't find it. If you're free, try reading the chinese language bible. It's uber cool. I go X-X-X every other sentence but it gives a different view and the psalms in chinese is really beautiful :)

Today's a nice day. I don't have to rush against time and traffic. I hearts vacation! *(v)*

2009-08-18T05:33:00.000-07:00

Adrenaline rush through your body as you race past your opponent. Your eyes fixed on the little ball of blur as it stear on the grass patch. Then, the stadium echo with anticipation as you give a mighty kick. It's as if the world come to a stand still. You could almost hear everyone holding their breath as the soccer ball zoom through the air. The goalkeeper leaps and raises his hands with all his might, ready to protect the goal. His reflexes is too fast, an understatement for the zooming ball. He catches it and the victory cry of the opposing team resound through the stadium. Just then, the shrilling whistle signaling half-time tore through.

'ANTI-CLIMAX!' I could almost hear the frustrated sigh of many sitting behind their computer screen lament. Nope, I'm not talking about a socceer match today. I want to talk about 'half-time'.

I've never exactly watch a real socceer match before, unless you count world cup. But i guess half-time in a soccer match is probably one of the most important time in a match. It is the time where the coach would review and discuss new strategy to improve the game, where players could take a breather and recharge before the final lap.

Likewise, now is like half-time for my poly education. Year 2 sem 1 is unofficially ending, with the final exams and we'll be done for the semester! Time really flies and i'm already halfway through my tertiary education.

I couldn't help but look back and gasp at how much i've fall, learnt and grow these one and a half years. I was reminicising with the Bimbs yesterday about how cute we were in year 1 and it was really nostalgic just talking about the past. One and a half years didn't exactly seemed that long but so many things have since happened and changed.

I guess i've learnt to take things better in my stride. Critism use to bring me down quite a bit and it still does a weeny bit but i learnt not to take things at face value. There's so much things, people and matters that aren't as simple as it seemed at first. It's like people who outrightly point out your mistake might not necessarily be mean and a person who seasoned his words with honey doesn't mean he's a good friend. People self-monitor(which means to take on different personality in different situation), thus, there's no definite conclusion like 'he's a nasty guy, or, she's a good girl.'

My value and perspective of certain things have also change since day 1 of school. For good or bad, i don't know. But the weird part is that the more knowledge i have, the smaller i feel in my sight. Even though i know ABC, there's still DEF that i haven't figure out.

Recently i've been thinking a bit about the future and i realise i haven't got any idea what to do next time. My standard reply for the future would be 'See how lah! If can get into uni, i'll go uni then prob get some PR job or try air stewarding.' But is that what i really want? If i'm going to uni, wat course am i going to study? If i try sir stewarding, how long can i do it for?

Mann. I'm a disturbed youth without a future. I guess i'm still bumming around and unsure of what the world have in store for me. But i guess i'll be safe as long as i stick to doing things that i enjoy doing. I guess, i guess, i guess... Life is full of uncertainity. I feel unsafe all of a sudden. But then, the roof might just cave in and i might just die even before i publish this post.

Alright, back to the half-time theory. Let me finish it before the roof really cave in. So, i've just reviewed through the first-half and my strategy for the next half? Guess it's to fill up my pathetic almost non-existing portforlio, to learnt as much as possible and to spice up my school life so i'll never look back in regret 20years down the road.

The whistle tore through the stadium once again, signaling the start of the second-half match.
Are you ready?

2009-08-10T21:59:00.000-07:00

Xinderalla got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that you've been driving yourself too hard lately.Sure, there is time to invest yourself fully into work, but there is equally important time for joyful resting. And for you, this time is now. What is the absolutely most wonderful little treat you can give yourself? Do it today.

Yayeee! I've got divine permission to rest! See. Daddy God knows best :)

2009-08-03T06:45:00.000-07:00

Why?

A dozen burning questions. But that wall of pride stands in the way.

Human beings are exceedingly complex. Sometimes its so hard to know what's in the mind of other people. Whatever happened to that 'i'm hungry, i'm sad, i'm happy' straight to the point response when we were younger and things were simpler? Sometimes i wish people could be read like a book. Maybe alot of misunderstanding would be cleared that way, maybe alot of things would be different. I guess people get hurt along the way as we grow up and our defence mechanism build a wall up to protect ourselves from harm. It's dangerous to let your guards down cos you never know when you'll get hurt.

Insecurity, I hate that. Complexity, I don't understand. You, I don't know.

2009-07-27T06:43:00.000-07:00

Dear Aunt Agony,

I've got a friend and recently she feels very bored by her mundane life. She told me she felt like a loser having to rush a 60-100page report in 3 weeks time and finish a filming project and interview someone about public transport and come up with an article and draft up a contract for law and role play for gems all at the same time too! Aint she pitiful? She feels like quitting school to look at the outside world. But i told her it's an absoultely stupid idea and she should just stick her butt in school and get buried under work. She's really wierd sometimes. Like last week, she got a 40degrees fever for the whole week and she burned herself silly. She went to take part in poly50 too, the inter-school race in sp where teams have to run around the school 50 times. Even though her legs wasn't exactly long and she haven't had a decent run for a good 2years, i still admire her courage quite a bit. But you know what's the funniest part? She went for training twice then had to backed out cos of the fever. You know the how people should never excercise 1 week after they recover theory? Yeap so now she's out after going for trainings and panting like a cow on the track. And today during law lecture, she suddenly thought that Damsel is a nice name and decided to add it to her other family of names. Her name is now Rachelbelle Damsel Summer Gracia Hannah Tan. I think it's quite a nice name, just a tad too long. Anyway, it's such a blue monday and she came up with smiley M&Ms to counter monday blues. I mean, how can anyone be so unhygiene and place food on her dirty laptop and pop them one by one into her mouth! That girl seriously need some ettiquette classes. There you see, i took a photo of her disgusting act. Let me be a kind soul and warn you all about it, in case next time she offers you chocolate, you better think twice.

Anyway, it was a nice time talking to you Aunt Agony. I've got to go and ask my friend to continue with writing her report and not get distracted every so often. But she's kinda nice though, asking me to blog on her behalf so that people who come here regularly have something to read, even if it's crap. It's so socially responsible to entertain people. And Damsel totally agrees with me. :) Oh yes. and dunno who please stop sending wrong messages to my friend. You know, she've been recieving super cute SMS from dunno who. And that dunno who send her this today 'Baobei!!! Darling!!! Sweetheart!!! I'll love you for life!!! :)' I know she's very lovable and cute. But even if you want to confess your undying love for her, at least identify yourself so she could love you back too. Everyone needs a lil love to get around and Damsel so totally understand that. Damsel wants me to tell you that she lurb eu and till then!

XOXO!

Yours faithfully,

Her majesty.

2009-07-12T06:43:00.000-07:00

STOP!

You don't have to go into a mute-my-computer-now frantic again!

I've change my horrifiying disney songs away to Corrinne May now!

It's another looong week ahead and let's start the week with the right attitude and mentality. A good start is half the battle won. Let this week be a fruitful and adventurous one where my character can be mould, where God can be glorified and where i can be a blessing to people around me. My Lord, Your love gets sweeter and sweeter each day :)

Jesus said: "I tell you not to worry about your life. Don't worry about having something to eat, drink, or wear. Isn't life more than food or clothing? Look at the birds in the sky! They don't plant or harvest. They don't even store grain in barns. Yet your Father in heaven takes care of them. Aren't you worth more than birds?"

Matthew6:25-26

You're worth more than the birds of the air or the lilies of the field.

Stay precious my friend! Have a great week ahead! :)

2009-07-08T07:44:00.000-07:00

Little white sail, cruising amidst.

Wind howl, meancing wave threatened to swallow.

Tossing the vessel around, losing control.

Directionless, the stirling wheel spun round and round.

All is lost, alas.

That faint light, a comforting sight in the midst of a thunderstorm.

My strong tower of refuge, my firm stronghold.

Never alone, your light guides my path.

Direct me, my lighthouse.

2009-06-29T06:32:00.000-07:00

Hi Huns! Guess who's back?! :)

It's the first week of school! And I jus had my Law paper today. It's one of the most insane paper i've written, as in i can stare and laugh at my answer out loud in the exam room.
The last question is so totally unexpected, like they require you to answer with general knowledge and in common sense. Common sense is not common at all. FYI, the last question was 'Should dealth penalty for drug trafficking be abolished? give 3 reason to support your answer.' The question is okie but i just can't think of 3 reason to support my answer. So for the last reason, i wrote 'The death penalty should not be abolished as we should not waste the tax payer's money. The money we contributed to support them in the prison can jolly well be used for other important things like improving the infrastructure of common property.' I honestly didn't mean what i wrote. It was in a moment of fluster and forced by circumstances around me that i commited manslaughter and deemed all the drug traffickers to eternal condemnation. Every prisoner deserve a second chance, with that i rest my case.

It feels so good to rant. Oh yes, back to the content of today's post. I'm suppose to post up my 10 commandments or requirement of my BF, as a deal with Van. But i bet you guys must be so sick of me posting up such requirement every so soon. So i thought i should also post up my requirements for myself, as in being the girlfriend i want to be. Somebody famous once said 'Ask not what others can do for you, but what you can do for others.' This is so true, before we even ask for a top grade bf, who are we to deserve them? Even if one falls straight into my lap now, will i even have the quality to be a blessing to him? Sometimes i have the urge for a merge but i told God not to give me a partner untill my 'weeds' are pulled out i can be a blessing to him.

I'll give the criteria for my BF , not in order of importance. Everything's important here. :)

#1) One of same religion, preferable of the same church. I'm not religion-ist or anything of sort, but i strongly believe that a couple should have the same faith and same conviction. It's heartening to be able to work towards a common goal and having same direction in life.

#2) Loves God more than anything else. Perferably a leader, somone who is able to be a priest and lead by revelation.

#3) Charismatic, friendly, approachable and has the sun-shiney x-factor. Have a sense of humour and is optimistic. I like sanguine guys :)

#4) Someone will a vision and goal, knows what he want and set his heart out to achieve it.

#5) Able to provide security and is stable and dependable.

#6) Here comes the physical aspect: Tall(183 is perfect cos i'll reach his shoulder with heels and chest without heels), I adore small eyes and dimples, Sharp facial features and strong jawline, Lean and nicely tone body, soft black hair that is nicely waxed up.

#7) Takes care of personal grooming and hygiene and is a sharp dresser.

#8) Generous and genuine in praises. Every woman needs regular dosage of affections and compliment.

#9) Wise and pursue wisdom, someone who updates himself with current affairs and has a mind of his own. Someone who's able to hold a deep conversation, critical in mind yet tactful in words.

#10) Love to have fun and takes delight in spending quality time, someone who's able to give his undivided attention when i speak and is sensitive to my needs.

#11) Gentlemanly, someone with strong manhood, righteous, excellent moral and ethnics.

Seems like a super sky-high standard right. Here comes my criteria for myself!

#1) Love God more than i love him, or anything else.

#2) Strong and independance, able to take care of myself yet gentle and submissive to him and authority.

#3) Takes pride in personal grooming, sharp in dressing, someone whom he can be proud to bring around and declare 'this is my girlfriend'

#4) Enjoy recreational activities, even though i'm super scared of ball games, i'll still try. I'll learn to watch soccer matches and do guys things.

#5) To be a good encourager and listener, someone who'll not pass judgement but listen attentively and made wise and encouraging comments.

#6) Someone who's willing to go the extra mile to serve, have the thoughts and creativity to do little cards and bake pastries.

#7) Someone who's always there physically, in down times and up times. ( OMG so cheesy, i can't believe i just said that)

#8) Physical aspect wise, i can't change anything except to shed off that flabs. I have long hair, small eyes, fair, 164cm, and an average build i guess.

#9) Has good moral values, is punctual(opps), help ah ma to cross the road, donate to charity, donate blood( still trying to pluck out my courage)...

#10) Sugar, spice and everything nice! :)

Have a great week ahead! I'll see you when i see you! :)

2009-06-14T07:46:00.000-07:00

Hiya! I'm back to this deserted forsaken blog. The dust here is like 12inches thick, like a subway bread! Many apologies to my disapointed readers who click on this blog to find no new entries. I've tried to blog in recent days but found nothing interesting to write about and cross it out in frustration. I have like a few draft of random stuff. Still, i found nothig interesting to write about but i thought i should at least post somthing to notify you of my existence. I still check out the taggie and people's blog even though i'm not posting anything.

This few weeks have been hectic as usual and i've been running about to meet different people and all. I feel like a rat running round and round in the rat wheel sometimes. No matter how fast i run or how long i run, i'm still on the same spot trying to defeat nature's law of gravity, trying to get onto the top. What's the point of running so fast that you miss the beauty of stillness. It's been long since i've stopped to whiff at the scent of the flowers or feel the gentle touch of wind on my hair, all let down.

I guess this is all about urban living. Before you eat your breakfast, you thought of what to get for dinner. Before you sleep, you think of what to wear for tomorrow. Our mind always move at lightspeed and our body rushes to follow up with our mind's speed. Instant meals, quick grabs. Everything is about speed, who can deliver it in the fastest time... Sometimes i wonder, what's the use of rushing everything? To pack more things into an overflowing scheldule? To earn more money with the few seconds of time?

I have an urge to punch the shutdown button on my phone, turn off the internet, pluck out the housephone and retreat into wilderness. So melodramatic, but ya know this wierd urge to be isolated and spend quality time with I, me and myself.

Slow down baby, cos i can't catch my breath.

2009-05-25T03:47:00.000-07:00

On the cold stone slabs lay full of rough stones, glass sheds and dirt. An altar that does not promise glory, a sacrifice that brings along mockery and scorn. Will you obey till the point of death? Will you surrender your pride, your needs, your all and be a living sacrifice?

God asked me these questions during our last Usher ministry leadership training session on sunday. It's like the burden of the ministry is on your shoulder, that we are the next generation to run the ministry. Are we willing to lay aside our time, when our friends are indulging in worldly recreation and we are slogging our life out planning team vision, updating team attendance and following up on the ushers.

The responsibilities that comes along is not a bed of roses. Like what Beatrice said, even if you're on a bed of roses, there'll be prickling thorns underneath if you press deeper. This one year plus of taking a team has not been a smooth sailing path. There are days when i just feel like throwing in the towels or calling it quits. There's time when i felt so alone and God seems so far.

Being 17 and having to lead people older than you is a no mean feat. Sometimes i feel like i don't have the authority to speak to them and why should they listen to a teenage girl telling them what to do. Yes, beneath the usual smiling facade, i do have my share of fears, worries and emo moments.

But i'm glad to have a bunch of supportive ushers who's willing to humble themselves and submit when they probably have so much more knowledge. My dear fellow leaders have been a great source of encouragement too. Without their shoulder to cry on, their words of affirmation and their comforting hugs, i wouldn't be able to survive through it all. Of course, my greatest motivation comes from Daddy God. His gentle spur and unfailing grace gave me the faith to dare to believe and step out.

I remembered Bee once told us this thing about being a 'living sacrifice' during our last Vibez meeting. God desires a living sacrifice, not a dead one. Because a living one has a self-will and choice. The beauty of sacrifice is that it must come from a willing heart, not one that is dead and forced. Even though the living one might jump on and off the altar as and when they like, but Daddy God never will force His will on people.

I am willing. Please use me Daddy. Take all of me, all my weaknesses, my talents, my needs. Give me a sevanthood heart, a teachable heart, a humble heart, a broken heart, a heart that longs after You, a heart that fears You. All i desire is You. All i want to hear at the end is 'Well done, My good and faithful servant.'

:)

2009-05-14T00:50:00.000-07:00

Feeling unmotivated, i pon school for the first time this sem. I know it's not a very valid excuse to skip school but i felt so weary and dreadful. Must be the after-effect of editing the same 90seconds trailer for 5hours. Imagine examining every milli-second detail in the trailer, perfecting every dialouge and audio and replaying it over and over and over again for at least 100 times. Even a normal person will turn insane from memorising the lines.

And a very unmotivated me decides to search the answer as to why people feel unmotivated. And yes, it gotta do with this Maslow hierachy of needs theory. I learnt this during a communications module. So this part is kinda easy to understand.

Human beings have 5 level of basic need.

1)Physiological needs are the most fundamental for existence, like food, water, air.

2)Safety needs are the need to have a sense of security and know that things will be constant.

3)Love/belonging need is the need to feel love and belong. As such, people need to have friends.

4)Esteem need is the need to feel respected and appreciated by people.

5)Self-actualization is the need to pursue 'higher' things like creativity and perhaps a religion, higher calling.

The rule of this theory is such that the most basic need(which is physiological need) must be fufilled before people move up the pyramid to want to fufill other needs.

Which is very true, for example, You wouldn't want to pursue your self-actualization need(aesthetic appreciation, e.g: go for yoga classes) if you can't even fufill your physiological need( money to buy food).

And here's the link to how needs are connected to motivation.

There's this other theory known as The drive reduction theory. It states that if a need is not met continually, the drive to satisfy it increase. And if we satisfy it, the drive would reduce. For example, when you're hungry, the desire to eat would increase. But once you eat, the drive to eat will decrease. In this process, motivation or the drive would be form. Thus, in summary, motivation is the driving force to fufill your need. Motivation can be influenced both externally and internally. But i shall not overwhelm you guys with the vast info.

So back to me skipping school. Somewhere along the way

1) i must have either all my needs met and no motivation is needed to spur me on.

2) Or i feel disatisfied with the things i'm doing that i'm not motivated.

3) Or there isn't any tangible rewards.

Anyway, i felt so much better having some pyschological theory to back up my lousy excuse. And there's a motivation for me to go school. Mr Rajan is teaching us to sample different types of cheese tomo! The Aesthetic need to sample different kind of cheese is fuelled by motivation. :)

Heeheh. My daddy just brough me a 500gb hard disc and mummy agreed to buy me an Ipod. More motivation to carry on with life. We need a little motivation once in a while. right?

2009-05-05T09:27:00.000-07:00

Whose voice are you listening to today?

There's so many sources of information in the world today. Flick on the Tv and you see all sorts of news. Struck of natural disaster, increasing crime rates, widepsread of epidemic diseases...

Tune in to the radio and you'll hear all sorts of gossips, cynical reports, songs with uncouth lyrics...

'You're never good enough.' 'I'm so disappointed with you.' 'I can never do it.'

Sounds familiar? Many times in my life, I've heard people telling me that i'm never good enough or i'll never suceed. Gullibly, i fall into this lie. And worse, i'll start lying to myself of how i am useless and a failure.

Some time ago, i heard this song. It's called 'Voice of Truth'. It's an super awesome song and the lyrics is super real and meaningful.

One part says

'But the voice of truth tells me a different story.

The voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"

And the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"

Out of all the voices calling out to me,

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.'

Yes. I will believe and hear the voice of truth! :)

2009-04-23T07:39:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys! I didn't have enough time to sit down and type out a proper post this few days. I wasn't very busy, just been up and running about quite alot.

School is not as bad as i thought. Surprisingly, the lectures were like one of the highlights in school! I like almost all of my lecturers this sem! They're like so cool and so hip!

I'm taking:
- Feature writing
- Mass Media Research
- Organisation Management
- Digital Media Application
- Legal system and contract
- Consumer behaviour
- Customer service

Quite coolious right! And my timetable rock! Only 2 8am lessons and it's plain awesome! Mass media research is super interesting cos we learn to stalk monitor people through blog searching. I went home and tried doing background search on my friends and i found like this secret confession blog, dedicated to writing all the encounters this girl had with this guy. It's super scary cos although she didn't use her real name or add anybody, i think i sort of know her from all the friend's name she mentioned. I think it'll scare the hell out of the guy if he sees it. So be wise! If you wanna do some secret confessions or something, please write in some diary or something. The cyber world can't be trusted!

School aside, i think i'm turning into a spinster! All i think of is home, home and home! Other than going to school and church, i don't even feel like stepping out of the house for normal recreational stuff that young people do. And i'm barely 18! OMG! It's like some premature ageing thing. I can imagine my skin all wrinkled up and grumbling that i need to sleep when my other elderly friends invite me to some dim sum lunch. Oh yes. Speaking of age, Sher and Wen is turning 18 in 3hrs time! And and and according to some princess legend, they'll need to find their true love kiss before they turn 18 or a curse will come to past and they'll not live past dawn! Hahahah. Please doubt the credibility of this post.

I wanna go shop online now! Byeee! :)

2009-04-18T08:37:00.000-07:00

'NOOOOO!!!', yelled an exasperated me as i fumbled with the buttons and clumsily unassembled the details. Blood pressure going down, no sign of life. It's as if i'm performing an operation on my dying phone. Cold sweat broke out as i sat on the edge of the chair, fully-geared at reviving it. The repeated failed attempt seems to concealed the fate of my poor phone. I have no other choice but to accept it. The bitter harsh truth.

Ensalverly. The first word that came to my mind after the drama mama moment sinks in. It's incredible how technology can alter your moods, makes you panick or rejoice at it's whim and fancy.

We're all in a way or other a prisoner of technology. Remember times when you would make an u-turn home just to retrieve your phone? Speaking of being 'chained', there was once when my laptop charger broke down and i rushed immediately to the repair center to replace it, even at the expense of missing lectures. The idea of surviving without my charger is not even in the course of consideration! Technology aren't that trustworthy afterall.

Of course, communication technology do bring us much benefits and advantages. The world is now a click again and the distant between one another is shortened by a considerable sum. I would never be able to imagine living without internet access or a phone. Horrors horrors! Imagine having to write and get some pigeon to send it out for you and wait forever for your friend to reply! Technology like phone also simplify a big part of our lifestyle. A phone is also an organiser, calender, clock, calculator, alarm clock...and the list goes on. It is certaintly undeniably one of the most noblest creation of the human species.

While it simplifies our lives, it sort of complicates matters too. I wouldn't point finger at a seemingly innocent phone but rather it's the result of abusing the benefits that we enjoyed. One of the most obvious abusement would be punctuality. In our Parent's time, they probably stick to their meeting time and being late would probably be a bane as there is no mode of communications to inform their friends that they'll be late. In our time now, hardly anybody stick to the proposed meeting time as excuses can be generated in just a few buttons away. Punctuality is certainly a virtue whose's value is undermined by the Y generation. Me too, am sometimes a victim of this Y-syndrom.

Nonetheless, communications technology is an inevitable tools in this fast-paced modern society. We can't eradicate it just because there is cons involved in the balance sheet. This world would break down without communications! Instead, i believe human beings will only be more reliance on such technology, which is very unhealthy in the long run. If the spring balance hits a limit...topsy turvy will be the word.

Yes. And after all this crap, i just want to say my phone just died. It's ok if you miss the previous paragraphs. Just drop me a msg with your contacts! I'm using a super classic spare phone but my contact is still the same.

Cheerios!
:)

2009-04-13T06:18:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated Easter Guys!

What's a better way to spend Easter than to spend it in church with my lovely CG and group12 piggies! Easter drama was as awesome! I teared at the cruxification part for every service that i attend! And my mum, cousin, cousin-in-law and nephew came for our Easter production! I'm sure they enjoyed themselves and so many people responded to the altar call! I was on the verge of tears singing the 'everything was done so you would come' song while the massive crowd thronged to the front. The presence of God was really strong and tangible :)

Grp 12 piggy gang went to Crystal Jade for buffet dinner after service! It's super shiok! Free flow of xiao long baos!

Holistic, Fahionable and Gorgeous Pig!

Chui Pig!
Bbq pig preaching!

Rest of the piggies!

I met with with BFFs and the 2e8 guy clique some weeks ago too!

I went to celebrate ting's Birthday after Easter service too! Super tired after chionging all the sessions!

Sleeping ugly! hahah.

Strolling to Esplanade!

Lurveess!

:) CASS FOP's tomo! Time to meet the juniors!

My heart's tainted with a shade of grey.

2009-04-10T07:58:00.000-07:00

Thank You for the cross, my Lord!

My redeemer lives!

:)))))))))))))))

2009-04-05T04:54:00.000-07:00

Heya! I'm back and feeling so hot! Not in a slutty manner but i'm running a 39degrees fever.
Terrible terrible! Must be the result of a throat inflammation. I can't talk and my quota of speaking 30,000 words a day is not met! So here i am, rambling cyberly.

What have i been up to? I've been meeting alot of people up for lunches and dinner! It's amazing how super old friends would contact me out of the blue and i had fun spending awesome time catching up with them.

But this fever is dampening my moods. I missed our easter cgm today and probably i can't go for our first Vibez outing tomorrow! Must be the works of devil in this easter season. I'll confess positively that i'll be able to recover by tomorrow! =D

Oh yes. I can choose Gems tomorrow! It's some general electives module that we take outside of our course modules. I'm thinking of taking french or some customer service modules or film appreciation. So coolious right!

Okie. I've ran out of things to ramble and i'm feeling really light and unreal now. Everything moves in slow motion . Guess it's time for me to rest. Byeee! =D

2009-03-31T23:58:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOOO!!! Hula girl( My camp name) is backie! =DDD

Camp was alright. Just there to facilitate games and all. But i like the slackness! Super awesome!
We have like 6 hours of free time almost everyday cos i'm usually involve with night activities. We even have time to go jaccuzi and take afternoon naps.

But it's really a camp of breakthrus. I did things that i've never tried before.

1) I cleaned the dirty campsite toiliet, scooped out the water with my bare hands and fill it with 'potion' and leftover food. I know it's like super ewwww but i did it! I did it! hahahah.

2) I changed 20 over bedsheets and pillow case for the campers.

3) I pretended to be a ghost during nightwalk.

4) I slept in a coffin for 6hours.

5) I hosted for Shim night.

6) I slept on 3 chairs and didn fall off.

7) I slept on the corridor bench.

Yeah. As can see, i slept alot. But am still very tired.

I'm not in the mood to blog. Yup. So i'll be back soon. =D

2009-03-24T08:01:00.000-07:00

BOOO!!!

I'm still ALIVE!!!

I'll be away for school camp for the whole of this week!

Sho i'll give a proper update when im back k!

=DDD

I'll miss you guys, i promise.

2009-03-20T07:34:00.000-07:00

As promised, here are the pics! But we didn't really take peektures for all the activities.

Day 1

Playing ice-breakers and getting to know others.
Liang Kai and Aaron-whom-i-always-mix-up-was-Keith doing clapping pumps as forfeit.

Happy ice-broke people

Food committee people preparing food.

Celebrating Van's Bday!

Night activity-blind man's trail!

Samuel crossing over tree trunk

Bullying them. Now you guys know who is the culprit!

I didn't bully you all. see! I'm ensuring that you guys don't hit your head. hahah.

Fatherly and motherly ICs ensuring their safety.

Group 12's family photo!

Group 11!

Hotel chui with 84!

Here's the covered up window panes!

Day2

Waking Pinde up with the 'hello, good morning' ringtone.

Tau-pok! and somebody farted! haha!

We went to e-hub for movies, pool, k box... But no pictures taken.

Day 2 mid-night! Our dear metrosexuals bros doing face mask!

Washing Ruixiang's hair! I wanted to dye it with a tub of peanut butter!

That's all the pics i have. Sadded. Should have taken more pics. Will try to cop some from Carissa or whoever.

=DDD

It's saturday tomorrow!! Awesome!

2009-03-18T01:07:00.000-07:00

USHER CHALET WAS A TOTAL BLAST!!!

Even though 80% of the stuff we planned didn't come to pass and i met a peeping tom( Horrors!), still i enjoyed myself throughly and stronger friendships were forged and strengthened. =DDD

I know i know you guys wanna know bout the peeping tom part right. It just happened. On a cold and rainy night, while the thunders and lightning flash across the darkened red sky... Alright alright, not as dramatic lah. I was showering then i saw this hand near the bathroom's window pane. The hand was holding like a camera phone and there's this red recording light on. Guess what i did? I threw the shower head at the window and shouted 'ehh!' Then i alarmed Lizhi and gang who were in the room. They chased out but to no avail.

I was so surprised i acted clamly. There's like this split second where options ran through your mind. 1) Cover up. 2) Pretend i didn't see anything. 3) Grab the camera. 4) Run out naked and chase him down the street. 5) Scream. 6) shout @%$!* 7) Attack.

And by default i choosed 7. First 2 is dumb, 3rd is dangerous, 4th is stupid, 5th is it, 6th i'm quite stuck at saying the nahbeh thingy, 7th seem like the best. AND AND AND If it happens again, i'm going to pull his hands through the window panel, turn the water temp to highest, sorched it, twist it 180degrees to the right and bang his head against the wall. HAHAHAHA. *Evil Grin*

And to protect the rest of the sister, we masking taped the window panes with towel, toliet roll, trash bag. And a few bros patrol around the vicinity. Through it''s kinda freaky, it was quite fun seeing everybody work together to protect each other. =DDD

Other than that peeping tom incident, we had BBQ, games, uno cards, poker cards, mahjong, PS3, tau-poking session, 'helllo, good morning' waking up session, movie, balloon water bomb sessions, midnight stroll sessions and hotel chui chit chat sessions. The bros even did face mask!
I'll elaborate more when i cop the pics k!

Oh yes! I got my results back! I was dozing off in the train, brain totally shut down and hardly functioning untill i received a sms from the school. It says alot of wierd module codes and alphabets and my puny brain couldn't comprehen it from 6hrs of sleep in 3days. I stared at it for 1min before remembering that i'm getting my results today. I'm quite pleased with it, since there's improvement from last sem.

PSYCHOLOGY AND COUNSELLING: B+
JOURNALISM 1: NEWS WRITING: A
WEB PUBLISHING: B
ISSUES AND VIEWPOINTS: B
FUNDAMENTALS OF ECONOMICS: B+
INTRODUCTION TO PUBLIC RELATIONS AND ADVERTISING: B+
INNOVATION, DESIGN AND ENTERPRISE IN ACTION: B+
DIGITAL VIDEO PRODUCTION AND APPLICATIONS: B+

My GPA is like 3.458.
Thank God for grace grace and more grace. =DDD

2009-03-15T07:40:00.000-07:00

Heya!

These few days have been awesomely busy! =D

The Bimbs went to Princess on ice! Mann! It's a total princess affair and we had tons of fun!

Tiara+Dresses+XOXO+Bimbs=Fantabulous!

Making Chrissy's advanced bday card
Done!
Candid happy shot.

Dinner at subway

Friendship band! Mine, Sher's, Mel's, Chris's =D

CSCC Day is finally here! After more than 4 months of preparations! On the way to Raffles Marina country club.

Doing up the hall and all the last min touch up.

Presenting...

Mys.tique De Grande!

I had the funnest time hosting =D

CS de shuai ge. Left being most shuai. hah! Sorry Sean!

OCs!

6survival of PR!

Cancri!

Irritating them is my source of entertainment. hah!

Lurvlies!

Slipper rocks.

Happy big family.

I've changed my mind. Fickling, in a good way. Through thick and thin, I stick through! =D

And i'll be off for usher chalet from mon-wed! AWESSOOMME! It's gonna be GOOD! WOOHOO!

2009-03-04T05:16:00.002-08:00

Where am i?

I miss gross xin-the one smear choc on her face whenever she eats choc doughnut.

I miss wierd xin-the one who is always trying to act sexy but can't even do a wink.

I miss xin the unglam.

I miss Xin-the one with an imaginary friend.

I miss xin-the one who talks to green potty and all.

I miss xin-the flirt.

I miss xin-the retard.

I miss xin-the cinderella

Gosh. I think i'm having identity crisis. I'm now xin-the grump. =(

I have no idea why i'm feeling so blue and upset and moody.
Janel says 'You're not Xinyi! Give me back my Xinyi!' the moment she sees me.
I just wake up today and thought that i don't feel like smiling and talking today. And i just didn't smile and talk as much.
NoNoNoNoNoNo. I don't want to be xin the grump. =((((

P.s: Seeing my dear Melly in those photo makes me laugh. =DDD

2009-03-04T05:16:00.001-08:00

Iie ish a shalalalalalalalalala hapii gurl!

Iie lurb rainie dae lyke todaes. Cus iie can wade in the water like a duck. hahha. I'm not making sense and i just want to irritate you guys. hahah.

I'm not a Good CSCC member.

Cos while the rest slog their hearts out setting up the cca booth,
i was sleeping.
Cos while the rest thirst their throats out alluring juniors to join our camps,
i was having high tea at Delifrance.
Cos while the rest brave through thunders and storm under the filmsy tentage,
i was watching TV under my cosy blanket.
Cos while the rest dirty their hands in paint,
i was doing manicure and pedicure.

Me sucks.

Woohoo. I just created a poem! For all mean ppl who skip CCAs. Cheers. *raise wine cups in air*

Anyways, just want to share this video with you guys. It made me teared every time i watch it. It's about this father who help his son who's physically disabled to finish a race. With selfless love, he mange to overcome all odds, just to fufill the wish of his beloved son.

It just reminds me of the love of our heavenly Father.
At times when we are weary of running the race of life, He's our biggest cheerleader.
At times when we fail, He's there to lift us up with open arms.
At times when we cried, He's there to wipe off those precious tears.
There's no love greater than the love of Daddy God.
We might be imperfect, we might grief Him time and time again.
But He's the same Daddy God, same forgiving Daddy, same Loving Daddy, same faithful Daddy.

I love You Daddy God!

2009-03-04T05:16:00.000-08:00

I've not been bloggging cos i want to act mysterious. It's not fun letting you guys know my whereabouts. Heh. No la.

Actually i've been so busy with CSCC dinner and dance planning. I go to school for meetings pratically everyday. As a result, i have nothing to blog about. I photoshop-ed invitation cards, cert, send them for printing, add glitter, touch up on doorgift, pluck feathers, stick stickers... Nothing special or spectacular. Life's a BIG FAT BORE!

Let me see. The only interesting thing is that Mum and Dad came back from Macau! And mum brough me lotsa necklace, earrings and bracelet. =DDD

I've been quite addicted to photoshop. It's the Christel virus! hahaha. So i photoshop some random stuff out of boredom!

This is entitled 'my ambition'

First up, the 'longest' ambition i had-SIA cover/poster girl. =DDD

Slim and trendy Housewife/tai tai with pretty pearl earrings, cosy clean house, garden with lotsa tulip blooms and a fridge full of food!

Happy public relations officer! Dancing in front of Raffles place Mrt after a promotion and pay rise!

Stylish farmer/shepherd with a hot korean farmer husband-Joo Ji Hoon!!! I want to grow organic food and own a flock of sheeps. I look obese/pregnant here. haha!

That's all folks! Stay tune! (i might just photoshop your face! watch out!) hahahah!

XOXO!

2009-02-26T00:59:00.000-08:00

Yayee! Today marks the day that i'm freed from year 1! Exam's over, time to party! I'm so looking forward to all the events and meet-up! I'm not working! Holidays are too short and precious! Ask me out people! =DDD

I met BFF up after eww-prah paper for a nice picnic.

Shi's ai xin egg mayo+ham+tomato sandwich. =D

Ting's ai xin sausage sphaghetti. =D

Wen's ai xin Alou Vera Jelly.

Xin's ai xin finger food. =D

Shi is pouting cos she's mozzie's fav.

Ting enjoying her food

Squashing good time.

I wasn't in proper sport's attire so i didn't join in. That's an excuse actually.

I'm so hungry now that i can't think properly. Hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry.

I'm a hungry happy girl!

2009-02-21T08:51:00.000-08:00

Curse of the Marionette

As the puppeteer pulls his strings,

The fragile doll spreads her wings.

To dance a ballet as he directs

That is the curse of the marionette.

Controlled by a hand far, far above,

Forbidden to care, forbidden to love.

Forever shall she mime what she cannot know,

Until the day she loses her illusory glow.

Propped up on a stilt where wine once stood,

The marionette is, once more, only wood.

Her glossy eyes have lost their shine,

And her silken hair has turned to twine.

What a fate awaits the poor little doll,

Who dances and runs but cannot stand at all.

And the puppeteer is applauded at the end of every show,

But the audience's joyous response the doll can never know.

I am but a doll on an endless stage,

Dancing for others whilst I slowly age.

My puppeteer sits far above,

Hiding his face behind a white glove.

And when I have aged to nothing but wood,

I will be tucked away in a closet where a doll once stood.

Then, as I gather dust and the world passes by,

I will be forgotten by the blue, blue sky.

Annoynomous.

2009-02-19T05:11:00.000-08:00

HELLUOOO!! =DD

Econs is finally over! Goodbye and good ridance Mr Econs! You're officially dump by me! HAH!

Next come IPRA. (Say Ewww Prrrraaahhhh) It's introduction to public relations and advertising. And i've decided to mug later. =D

How's my Valentine's day? I spend 9/24 hours in church, 8/24 hours sleeping, 2/24 hours eating, 3/24 hours thinking of pick-up lines on msn, 2/24 hours showering, travelling, q-ing up, saying 'hi' to people, giving out val gift and saying 'bye' to people.

And generous Mitchel brough me a bouquet of sunflowers, as a gesture of friendship. I emphasis, F-R-I-E-N-D-S-H-I-P. Preeetty flowers. =D

I've been working on recreation thingy that Pastor said. Cg went to west coast park last sunday for some volleyball game and picnic. I tried, really tried to play volleyball but i have this extreme phobia of ball games. I ended up looking like i'm playing dodgeball. But i'm so going to try to overcome my fear of ball games. I don't want my future husband to be overweight, have a pot belly and play chess all day. Hahah.

But the good thing is, i tried squash and i like it! Squash is coolious! One more thing to add to the recreational thingy. BFF rocks my life! They came to SP to play squash and we're going to lakeside for pinic next week! =DD

Anyway, today is an awesome day! I went for breakfast with my mum and her friend, then mum brough me this leopard print flurry heels that i've been eyeing for some time. We then went to the library and i found 2 books that i've been searching for. It's a biography of Mother Teresa and Journal of John Sung.

Mother Teresa is an icon of compassion who availed her life to serving poor and needy people. This biography shed lights on her struggles and the intensity of her holiness. She is probably one of the most generous woman ever live, giving her all to better lives of people around. =D

John Sung is one of the greatest chinese evangelist whose ministry have imparted thousands of lifes in China and southeast asia. From a series of letters and diaries, he testify of the goodness of God in his life and ministry.

Even though i've only started on the first few chapter of two books, the sheer obedience of these 2 man and woman of God really touches me. John Sung graduated from the university of Ohio with a first class honours in chemistry- a mean feat for any asian boy in that time. Yet, he choose to serve God back home in China, forsaking the immense wealth and power he'll otherwise get. =D

So awesome right! hee.

Yayee! i'm extraodinary happy today. =DDD

2009-02-13T07:07:00.000-08:00

Happy Black Friday people! It's friday night and i'm rotting at home. I'm not going to touch econs tonight. =)

As you guys know, i'm having an awesome beyond awesome study break now. I have plenty of free time and i browse through my pile of old stuff just now and lo! I found my old diary. It was quite an interesting read figuring out my horrendous handwriting and spelling mistakes. Then i found this entry. It's a letter written to God asking Him to give me wisdom and grace to pass my exams and something like forgiving my sins for their mistakes?! Hah. I have no idea what that is. I was about 10years old when i wrote that. But it reminds me of those good ol' days when you do silly little things, that child-like faith that's unwavering and pure. See, my 'christian' name at that time is Joaquim. I copied it from the name of our national flower, Vanda joaquim or something.

My 'art' work when i was 11. 'You do not need to be perfect to be love'. So true. Even if you're bo gei, maimed or handicap, Jesus still loves you.

Stash of neo-prints. It's so amazing to see our hairstyles and looks evolve slowly through each neo-print. There's like Ting's pre-braces days and my thick bangs to Wen having short hair and Shi's rectangular spec frames. How i miss those times when we roamed aroung jurong point for hours and hours, without a care for homework or worries. =D *Sigh with Nostalgic*

Most prized cards, letters, photographs, sticker books, movie tickets... all tuck away in the drawer. My favourite pastime is to fish them out one by one and read them all over and over again. They never cease to bring a smile to my face. Different letters from different season of my life from different ones but still that same care and love. =D

Okay, This has nothing to do with the past. These are my essentials to mugging! hee. To maximise your potential during mugging, a well-rounded diet is highly important. Firstly, you can get calcium from cheese cubes and meji full cream milk! Calcium gives you strong bones! Mooo. There's alphabet soup too! You can memorise facts by eating the alphabets up to form your facts. The chicken and sausage inside gives you protein! Cherry tomatoes cheer your toes up! haha. They're a good source of dietary fibre, makes traffic down south smoother. ahem ahem. It's ok if you don't get it. Moving on, my most faithful exams companion-Brand's berry essence and chicken essence! Inner shine and outer shine! =) Next, my fav assorted dried fruits. I love dried cranberry lotsa lotsa! The next amazing food-Salmon sushi flavoured potato chips! It's like the most incredible potato chips i've had. It's potato yet it taste so much like salmon! FYI, Raw salmon is like my ultimate fav fav fav food. And now they have it in a reseal-able packet. OMGish! Scream MA-MA-MIA!!!

Finally, Happy valentine's day people! It's okie if you don't have a date. Don't feel loserish. Hang out with those who really matters-your friends n family! Xin loves you!

2009-02-11T05:55:00.000-08:00

CONFESSIONS...

They say love transcend all. Even though he's not tall, dark or handsome, actually quite the opposite but i just like the way he is. I guess there's no reason when it comes to love. Oh, love is blind. It's a love-hate affair. He is so uncomprehensional, sometimes it takes me so long to figure him out. But still, i enjoy the thrill of his company, especially the lingering soft touch of his skin. let me introduce.

His name is Fundamentals of economics, affectionately known as Econs. Standing at a height of 30cm by 15cm, He's a perfect A4 size. Like what i mentioned, He's not really tall, not really dark. He's rather white with fiercly looking tatoos on his skin, all hand drawn by Yours faithfully. And i might be having a hot date with him on Valentine's day.

Okie. I'm lame and bored. And i love Econs not. That's just a ~~lie~~ positive confession. Yayeeee!! It's now officially study break and i heart study break lots lots! I slept like more than 12hours and it felt so so so good. To be woken up by chirping of birds is so much better than the shrilling cry of alarm clock.

I went for prayer meetings too! It rocks lah! So pumped up and recharge now. No more mood swings! My erratic hormones is finally balance with sufficient rest and spiritual vitamins. =DDD
I can't wait for holidays to come. There's Val day this sat, Cg outing this sunday, Edge meeting following fri, Usher chalet, CSCC prep camp, focamp, CSCC day...

hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahhah.

=DDD

2009-02-06T06:26:00.000-08:00

And the floodgates broke lose.

Sentimental beings like us can never hide our emotions. We laugh when we're happy, cry when we're sad and occassionally gives fake smile in awkard situations. No pretense, no mask. Blame it on pms, blame it on being in an ultra melo-dramatic course. Christel and Xin teared again! Our floodgates broke loose for like dunno-how-many-times this week. And this time being a more dramatic one.

We're super stressed out this entire week. Needless to explain why-the usual project culprit. And there's this rehearsal today for Chris's cny event tomo. Everybody was fretting over the script and props then 2 blur testorene-powered fellows step on our nerves. The last thing you wanna hear from all this hard work is criticism and whining. They who-shall-not-be-named kept on threatening Chris that they'll back out if their this and this need is not met and the final blow came when they shove Chris on the shoulder. I tell you, I scolded that who-shall-not-be-named as harsly as i could remember. I'm sorry for ranting but you guys should know better when the atmosphere gets tense. I didn't mean any harm but you guys just came at the wrong time. I still love you guys! Don't worry! I just feel so sorry for Chris. She put in so much effort, coming to school early and staying back late to finish the proposal, skipping meals just to make things hapen. And people just don't appreciate all that she's doing. She's not obligated or paid and certainly don't deserve all this rubbish. And the disappointments i felt this week just came back to haunt like a ghost. People i trusted and have high hopes for just flop the first assignment i have for them. All i ever wanted was to see them flourish or at least be commited. Don't give me the promise when you can't even keep them. I don't have time to entertain cheap meaningless promise. And our wp project is back to square1. The nights that we spend rushing through them was wasted. The design sucks and we gotta redo them again. And my dreamweaver and flash skills sucks. It took me so long to figure out something, made something out and then throw them into the bin. I'm sure you guys understand how awful this is.

Still, life has to go on. And i'm truly thankful to those who stand by me and Daddy God for his encouragement and strength. Thank you friends for being sweet and understanding. I've not been in the best of mood and your little messages and hugs just made me feel appreciated. Disappointments and failures is all a part and parcel of life. What can i do if people just want to remain in their comfort zone? I've did whatever i can. At least i'm accountable to God and tried my best. I suppose they need time. I shall be patient.

After every rain comes a beautiful rainbow. That's the hallmark of every overcomer. Whatever cannot kill me only strengthens me. =DDD

2009-02-05T05:33:00.000-08:00

Helluooo!!

This week have been another crazily hectic week. Everyday was packed to the brim with endless projects and assignments and extra classes. I stayed in school for more than 12hours everyday! Unslightly pimple(s) seems to invade territories where peace use to prevail and reign. And there's this bazzar in school that sells meji choc and i've fallen prey to those sinful junk food again and again. Sometimes i feel like a warrior, preparing to attack a day full of big giants(Test, projects dateline) and little army( Overeating and pimple). I sort of enjoy charging through the 'battlefields', slaying as many giants as possible, enjoy every victory, triping over little army, laughing at it and moving on. Who says poly life is slack? I think i've never worked as hard before! I'm proud of being productive, for once!

All work and no play makes xin a dull girl. I'm so going to reward myself after 'war'! The bimbs might be watching Disney princess on ices together with bimbs of other class. It's gonna be some inter-bimbs DMC event! So coolious right! Leeyen from 01, Michelle, Cheryl from 02, Tiffany and gang( I forgot which class) and a few others are coming too! Hopefully no one backs out and it'll be so fun! We can even form some Bimbs congress or some union thingy. OMG! Can't wait! This year's Disney on ice's theme is 'A princess dream come true' and 7 princesses which include Cinderella, Belle, Aurora, Arial, Snow white, Jasmine and Mulan will be performing. Tinklebelle will be the host! Don't think this is some no brainer ~~chick~~ kid's musical. The producer went on a research before producing to see why Disney princess is so loved and different from other cartoon characters. The answer-because thses princesses dare to believe in their dreams and have the courage to fight for what they believe in. Thus, this musical aims to inspire us to be brave in pursuing what we want. If only we believe. Cool right! i know i know.
=DD

I shall write more soon k. I'm really dead beat and i don't think i'm making sense anytime, anymore. hee.

XOXO,
Lovvveeee!

2009-01-27T23:38:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL!!!

I wanted to blog in chinese but i didn't know how to change the language mode and it's going to take a long long time figuring out the hanyupinyin. So plan aborted!

New year celebrations were pretty alright. Let the peektures tell the story!

Reunion dinner at my Ah ma's house. These are my handsome paternal side cousin Hayward and Hayden. =D

My sis and i.
Mummy!

This is my ~~old~~ barbie. Her name ia Amanda. She's very stylo milo. She wears wedding gown and rides a bike. Oh, that's her room behind.

Second day of new year with the usual clique. =DD We went on Singapore flyer and i sort of overcome my phobia of heights!

Sharon dearie!

This few days have been uber hectic. There's all the heavy workload, endless test to mug for and pressing projects deadline to meet. We stayed in school till 9+pm on tues and fri for flash test revision and to complete our editing work. Our poor lecturers had to stay back to tutor us and sacrifice their family time. Mr Howard and Mr Adrain rocks!

I've been really short tempered and frustrated with everyone because of the heavy workload. Please pardon me k. I felt really bad ignoring you guys or giving vague replies. Another week of school to go before study week. Bear with me for another week! Oh yes. Sharon is so sweet! She brough me 6packet of cereal to encourage me and in case i get hungry mugging in the middle of the night. Although it isn't anything expensive, i really appreciate her and her thoughts. Aww. Sweet girl! =D

But i felt really good seeing our projects finishing especially our short film! To see your pre-conceived idea coming to life as a script then slowly taking forms in visuals and audios. The satisfaction beats all the hardwork and madness filming and editing in our little suites. Studio19 cut1 is like my new home. I spend more time there than at home. our film will be ready in a few days time. so looking forward to it! =)

I have like web publishing group project left, Issues and view point gotta read up on globalisation, Pysch quiz and project submission, News writing article done, CSCC invitation cards, certificates, awards and backdrop design to do, Edit some audio for film...

Come Holiday come! Speed your love to me!

=DD

2009-01-24T09:57:00.000-08:00

Good morning everyone!!!

It's 2am now! But i'm still WIDE-AWAKE!!!

There's this perculiar feeling churning inside. I know i'm suppose to practise my flash and write my news writing article but somehow i just don't have the inspiration or mood to do it. Another writer block! But i have an urge to just write something. So i'm here-blogging aimlessly!

We had an awesome CNY service yesterday! I was totally blown away by pastor's sermon. Now i feel so proud to be a chinese! =D

And i'm so proud of Norman! He's doing h2 runner for the first time and Ivy is full of praises for him. My Norman and Joshua have expressed their desire to rise up in ministry. Boy oh boy! Can you imagine the joy i have! To see people stepping out of their comfort zone, knowing that their lives will be so much more meaningful and seeing them fufilling their destiny. If you guys are reading this, i just want to tell you all that i'm so proud of you and i believe you guys can do even more things. It's ok if you don't have as much talent as others. Be faithful in what you're given and more will be added. Don't be fearful of what people might say. Have the courage to do what's right and always walk/lead by revelation. Be teachable and keen to learn. There might be times when you might get discipled. But don't take it personally, iron can only be strengthen if it go through the test of fire. There is so much more to come and i believe our adventure together in making mistakes, learning from them and growing stronger and wiser would be a challenging and exciting one! I'll aways believe in you guys! =DD

Time really flies and i'm in the ministry for almost 3years now! It's been an extremly enriching journey and i enjoyed every part of it. I remembered those good old days when i had to wake up at 5am every sunday to serve in expo, those bitter moments when i had to serve alone during o-level period and finally the sweet reward( wonderful friends in ministry) for clinging on and pressing on. These 3 years have not been plain-sailing. I've had my share of being on the brink of tears from conregation and leader's scolding, the struggle to stay commited... But i'm glad to have brave through them all, a stronger girl, a better servant. Of course, there are a few who didn't manage to make it through and grew weary along the way. I saw this old friend who joined ministry at the same time as me just now. I no longer see the joy in her eyes. Instead, it's replaced by unwillingness and just-another-mundane-job-attitude. It's disheartening. But it lies in our ability to view every day as standard, live not expecting anything or you can embrace every day as a new challenge, constantly improving and breaking out of your comfort zone.

I choose the latter. What about you?
=D

2009-01-19T04:24:00.000-08:00

Tagged by Janel not daniao xiaonai or zhongniao.

Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them.

1) My lappy's charger just died down on me and the replacement will only come in 3-5days time. So technically speaking, i only have 1hr 32min to complete this before the battery die out.

2) Rachelbelle Tan Xin Yi means purity, beautiful, joy and gratitude. Hah!

3) I use to be very very very shy. Mention my name and i'll blush.

4) I smell to judge. I can't stand people with this wierd lavender scent. *sniff sniff*

5) I have a terrible fear of standing near a ledge, especially on the train platform. Cross over the yellow line and i'll smack your face. Cos i'm a good citizen.

6) I beat up a girl in the toiliet when i was in primary 1. And my mum was so proud of me.

7) My mum had 2 miscarriages before me. It means i have 2 bro/sis in heaven!

8) My princess illness acts up when i stand for too long, starve for too long or stay in enclosed area for too long. I'll faint and throw up.

9) My ambition is to be an air stewardess. I'm dead serious about it and i check S'pore airlines webbie for recruitment drive. The recent one was on 17jan. =D

10) I want a garden party in front of a castle and lake for my wedding reception. All the guests must dress up as any character in disney and drink tea from little porcelain teacup that giggles when you touch them. The finale will be a spectacular fireworks and everyone will dance to the tune of all lovely disney songs.

11) I use to have really short sloped hair when i was young cos a friend pass her hair flea to me.

12) I have a routine breakfast menu. Monday is prawn noodle, tues is fishball mince meat noodle, wed is fried noodle, thurs is duck noodle and fri is guey( or issit kway?) chap.

13) I stay on top of a shopping center. That's why i have good food early in the morning and late at night.

14) I once saw this fortune teller person in Taiwan who gave me very bad predicament about my life. Something about my mu(wood) getting burned by too much huo( fire) and how i have lots of tao hua( guys) in my life and they'll lead to my downfall or something. Nah never! I won't want it to be some self-fufilling prophecy if i harp on to it.

15) I want 4 children in future! 2 boys and 2 girls. 1 will be called Gracia, another Nathaniel. Other two will be named by my husband.

16) My lappie is now left with 32mins of battery life.

Whoever wanna do this just do k! My battery is dying on me soon!

=DD
loves!

2009-01-15T06:03:00.000-08:00

Oceans Will Part (Acoustic) - Hillsong

if my heart has grown cold,

there Your love will unfold;

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

when im blind to my way,there Your Spirit will pray;

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

oceans will part;

nations come at the whisper of Your call.

hope will rise; glory shown.

in my life, Your will be done.

present suffering may pass,

Lord, Your mercy will last;

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

and my heart will find praise, i will delight in Your way,

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

oceans will part; nations come at the whisper of Your call.

hope will rise; glory shown.

in my life, Your will be done.

oceans will part;

nations come at the whisper of Your call.

hope will rise; glory shown.

in my life, Your will be done.

thank You Lord, Thy will be done

beautiful Lord

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

Jesus open my eyes to the work of Your hand

oceans will part;

nations come at the whisper of Your call.

hope will rise; glory shown.

in my life, Your will be done.

=DDD

2009-01-11T06:15:00.000-08:00

Sigh sigh Sigh.

Life is like trying to grasp water in your hand while it seeps through your fingers, helplessly. It's so fragile, so short, so sudden. Of course, dying is all a part of life cycle but i can't help being overwhelmed by melancholy whenever somebody's somebody pass away.

Thank God i believe in heaven. Guess faith is really a driving force that keeps people going on in such circumstances. Well, everyone have to go home someday. I just hope that our little trip out here would be a memorable one, one that still impact people way after you're home, one that creates legacy :)

Let's not be so gloomy. Being thankful is the best cure for depression.

Here are 10 things i thank God for.

1) The chance to witness sunrise.(again and again)

2) A safe home.

3) All my love ones.

4) An education.

5) More than enough pretty dresses and possesions.

6) Peace.

7) Ability to see, hear, speak, nag, scream, cry, smell, smile, laugh, walk, dance and love.

8) Everyday. ( Yes. Including monday, even though i don't love monday as much as saturday.)

9) YOU. ( I know u're reading this becos a) u love me, b) u're kaypoy, c) u're bored. Don't need to tell me your answer. I still love You. Hah! )

10) God Himself. *('V')*

A merry heart makes a cheerful countenance,
but by sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken.

2009-01-07T05:15:00.000-08:00

Helloooo all!!

I'm still alive! Just really really busy with assignments and projects!!! Before i whine again, let me update some pics!

w387&w481 cg appreciation! This year's theme is so coolious! It's 'back-to-school'! And you can't believe how happy i am to be able to wear school uniform again. To relieve my fond school memories, i made all the sis tie their hair into 2 ponytail. Hahaha. Seriously, i don't mind wearing sch uniform for cgm.

This is my mei mei. She's in pri1. hahah.

This is me. Im in VJC and i'm my teacher's pet.
Jordan is a PE teacher.
Class w387.

School photo.

I'm a demure student by day and a va-va-vrom kick ass hot chick at night. ( sounds familiar, mel!) hahah. some grp12 leaders went to this place in Clark quay to count down. I think it's Fashion bar or something. Wan xiu and the rest didn't allow me to drink more than one quarter cup of that sweet tasting long island drink cos i'm underage but somehow manage to sneak in. It's awesome to end and start the year with this bunch of fun peeps!

It's gonna be hard work and more hard work after all these partying. Another 6 more wks to go and i'll be a free man again!

We're still in the midst of editing our short film, tail-end of our research for ivp, news writing test tomo, econs test 2 wks later( gosh gosh gosh!), web publishing assignment due fri, CSCC day invitation card design out by next wk, chalet reccee tomo+planning, team outing on sunday...

This sucks when there's a persisting flu and fluctuating fever. I need to take care of my health and break the bondage of flu. I'm thinking of skipping econs tutorial tomo and take a good rest before news writing test but take a look at this.

Which of the following is an incorrect statement about average total cost(ATC)?

a) ATC=( TVC+TFC)/Q

b) ATC=TC/Q

c) ATC=MC if MC is decreasing

d) ATC=AVC=AFC

Oh mann. what on earth is it?

I'm so going to mug for econs. I'm so going to ace econs. I'm a giant cos.

I'm more than a conquerer in christ! =DDD

2008-12-28T05:57:00.000-08:00

Some christmas peektures to upload!

Preetyy pretty candlelight service.

Ting came for service! =D
Usual Grp 12 usher leaders outing! =DDD

Bugis steamboat! Alan's shocked expression! ahah!My lovely roses of UM!

Pre-school blues ;(

This is not real. School's not starting tomorrow. I don't need to fuss about what to wear. I don't need to wake up early. I don't need to worry about projects. There is no exams. This is just a nightmare.

I wish! How i wish christmas is forever. To escape from the cruel reality, i slept for 17hours but i woke up feeling guilty for not touching my dust-covered textbook during the hols. In the end, i browse through my econs notes and practise photoshop and dreamweaver. I even watched an online tutorial on CSS. Xinyi is so awesome right! =DD

Time for some drama mama!

Oh no. I see exams and projects looming in the darkness. They wave their bony finger and flash an almost sinister grin, trying to allure me into their evil trap. I run as fast as my legs could carry me. But those 2 creatures take chase and is hot on my heels. All of a sudden, a strong arm grab me from the back and the slimy hand coil tightly around my neck, leaving me gasping for air...

Hahaha. How should we end the story? Ok. I've got a brillantly bright idea.

'Help...' i whimper, using all the remaining strength to struggle out of the monster's grip. Suddenly, a bright white light flash across the darken horizon and i saw a flash of blur dashing towards me.

'Stop!' a masculine husky voice thundered. The stranger then draw out his sword and slay the monster in a clean slash. He then put me on his white horse and we gallop away happily. I finally catch a glimsp of him on the horse. His soft black hair fall back freely as the wind rustle through. His eyes is of a deep hazelnut brown that seem to have the power to penetrate through your soul. His lips pouf like a dainty rose petal and his brows furrow in deep concentration as we gallop through the dense canopy of Bukit Timah hill. I sit contently in his embrace, oblivious to the puzzled looks of mel, sher and chris who happened to be jogging in the vicinity.

'Xin! is that prince charming with you?' questioned mel.

'I know right!' exclaimed sher.

'Let's go bimbs! i want to eat yu pian mee fen.' complained chris.

-The end-

Hahhahaha. I think it's a beautifully cliched story with a tinge of reality in them. Bimbs! i didn't forget you girls! =DD

Sha, Anna and Azzie is skipping sch tomo.

How encouraging.

I love sch. Exams and projects are there for me to score. yeah. positive confessions.

Being optimistic is a virtue and i'm a sanguine. =DDD

2008-12-25T07:34:00.000-08:00

Happy

Birthday

My all in all,

My Jesus

!!!

For unto us a child is born,

Unto us a son is given:

And the government will be upon his shoulder.

And his name will be called

Wonderful,

Counselor,

Mighty God,

Everlasting Father,

Prince of Peace.

2008-12-23T07:31:00.000-08:00

I'm finally SEVENTEEN!!!
And i had an awesome time celebrating growing old with some really awesome people. =DD
It's a mega jam-pack 4 days of celebration and fun!

There's so much stuff to update but yet i'm still in the midst of writing the 2nd xmas card and am already very much brain dead. Please pardon any grammatical mistakes and vocab mistakes and whatever tense or punctuation mistake.

My dear w387 and usher ministry celebrated with me on bday eve. Dear cg brough me a sexy black dress and 2 mini choc cake and eliz made me a lovely card. Usher ministry surprised me with a huge secret recipe cheese cake. It was a total surprise. I thought they are going to celebrate dec babies birthday next saturday and was doing recycling quietly when Alan suddenly dish out the big cake and the next min, everyone was singing birthday song. And i'm sure our suposedly-only-leaders-should-know-secret is revealed under Alan and Wanxiu's teasing. I think the 2 of them should just get together. Opps. hahahha. Jokes aside, i really want to thank you guys for making my life so much brighter. Thank you w387 for ur lovingness too!! =DD

I went for birthday lunch at Shokudo with Sharon and gang. Initially, Sharon suggest that ONLY BOTH OF US go on a date together and i'm strictly not allowed to bring anyone with me. I thought it was rather strange but gladly obliged. Then very coincidentally on the fateful day, Wan xiu walk in and coincidentally sit down at the table. Then, Jia sheng very coincidentally walk in to, coincidentally meeting a friend there and sit down at the table. Wan yun then coincidentally walk in and we coincidentally bump into Carissa at Cineleisure. Then i finally realised this is all but a scam. They are really really sweet! Sharon, Carissa, Liangkai, Jiasheng, ruixiang brough me a tiara hairband! Thank you guys for taking time out to have lunch with me. =D I had lotsa fun that day! Peektures are still with Jia sheng. =D

I went for bday dinner at NYNY and swensens that night with Mel. Mel's totally sweet! She made me a crown and a card and a totally bimbotic pink fluffy clipboard and this really sweet 'warning letter' that i can issue to people who pisses me off. And i lent her the tiara sharon and gang brough and we wore the crown struting around Marina square, City hall and Esplanade. Where can i find friends who believe in your fantasy, willing to embarassed themselves just to make your day? Mel's such a precious. =) Love her to bits!

Looking happy with my pressie.

Trying to hide behind the gigantic menu.

Looking happy with the complimentary earthquake ice cream. cos it's free.

Overjoyed. hahah.

The next day, on my 17years and 1 day young day, i went for CCA xmas party and CANCRI celebrated my birthday. This time, Janel pulled me to accompany her for something in the midst of the BBQ and Cancri surprised me with a blackforest cake. While i was happily cutting the cake, Janel dubbed an underwear on my head!!! She brough some random stuff like training bra, some armpit sweat absorbing thingy and kids underwear and gave them out as xmas gift. Don't go eeeeww please! I swear this panty on my head is absolutely new and clean and i scrubbed my hair as clean as i could when i reached home. hahah. Thanks Cancri for planning and the surprise. XOXO!

The next day again, on my 17th year and 2nd day of my life, i went out wit BFF! They are so sweet. They brough me a bouquet of sunflower and a big coffee mug. We went to so many places! First we went to Raffles city's Cafe cartel for lunch then we went to this flea market that Xiaxue visited. I was so scared of the place. It reeks of rusty tin and the hawkers just throw their goods around the road. There's all sorts of wierd things ranging from electronics to vintage watches to idolatry statue to 'ti ko pei'(lecherous men). There's this funny old man who keeps shouting 'wah, you mei nu. lai kan mei nu' whenever a female walks past his store. It's as if he has never seen a woman all throughout his life! We went shopping at bugis after that and went back to Jurong point's Cystal jade for dinner. =DD Thanks BFF! You girls rock my life!

Lastly, i want thank everyone who remembered my birthday. Your little message made my day=D Thanks to Mel, Chris, Sher, Ting, Shi, Wen, Bee, JiaYing, Eliz, Alvina, Don, Alvin, Alwin, Kenn, Adrain, Zi rong, Wendy, Jonnie ash, Andrew, Sharon, Carissa, Wan yun, Wan xiu, Jia sheng, Liangkai, Rui xiang, Alan, Karen, Clinton, Sunthari, Jingyuan, Karuna, Shuyu, Davis, Joel, Mitchell, Yuling, Jun ming, Brian, Edmund, Jenna, Joshua, Wei zhi, Chinming, Jan, Ben low, Fabian, Sam, Asher, Justin, Duta, Ronald, Darwin, Nigel, Aileen, James, Boon xiong, Qiming, April, Reuben, Ernest, Jasmin, Benji, En yun, Faris, Azzie, Ven, Seaney, Stanley, Ram, Jovan, Angela, Feng soon, Marcus, Esmund, Sameul, Piah wee, Janel, Gina, Wei min, Sean guoliang, Jingyi, Shi wei, Bobby, Suhaizat, Hikaru and friends... I hope i don't miss out anyone. But i'm very sure i did. Please forgive me. This tiny puny brain can't contain too much info.

Now, i want to thank all these generous soul for their blessings. The dark pink clipboard on extreme left is handmade frm mel, the candlelit with sensor is xmas gift from Jun xian, the venti size Coffee mug with cute cake stirrer beside is from BFF, The angel figurine is from Fabian(it's a surprise! cos he's only my mum's ex cgm's son and i didn't expect him to give me a gift), The pink happy card is from cg, the bouquet of sunflower is from BFF, The stylio grey top is from generous Mitchell(It's a hefty 3 digit price top from Skin), the sexy black dress beside is from cg, the yellow princess crown is from mel, the cutie marie cat towel is from Don and Darrel, The 'warning note' and yellow pretty card is from Mel, The photo and color pencil is from Gina, the tomato plush is from cancri, the white doll plush is from piah wee, the glittering tiara is from sharon, carissa, jiasheng, liangkai, ruixiang, the wierd thing that paste on the chest to cure flu is from Janel. =DDD

Thank You Guys!!!! i truly appreciates it!! =DD

2008-12-17T05:32:00.000-08:00

well well well. I'm supposed to catch a local film with my class and lec. I'm supposed to be roasting chicken wing at CCA chalet. But here i am in the comfort of my room blogging and feeling like a loser. I'm down with another flu. Gosh! It's like the 3rd flu attack this month! And there's My hope party tomorrow, more video editing on fri and a series of christmas activities thereafter. I can't afford to fall sick! I'll be healed. i'll be healed! Believe in the power of positive confession. haha.

My birthday is 4days away! I shall take this time to evaluate this year and make some new year resolution instead of lamenting my life away.

This year has been an extraordinary challenging year. Be it mentally, emotionally, spiritually, i think i've never had as many mixed emotions as compared to the previous years.

Spiritually, i've step out of my comfort zone and venture into areas i never thought i'll be in. I never thought i'll be able to lead an usher team or a connect group. I want to thank my leaders for giving me opportunity to fufill my destiny in Christ and also understanding from my people. I've sort of neglected my cg since ushering has taken up most of my time but my cg has been especially gracious to me. Especially Kenn whom i've not been an excellent cgl to. My new year resolution would be to balance up cg and ushering and especially to see kenn rise up to be a cgl and cg guitarist. I also want to thank my ushers for their faithfulness. They availed their time week in week out without complaints. They're truly the unsung heros backstage! Don't be weary of doing good ushers! For in due time you guys shall surely reap!

It's been like a roller coaster ride emotionally. My family went through a emotional crisis in may and my mum was down with depression. Those few months were one of the most difficult time in my life as my parents would quarrel and i was so afraid that my mum would commit suicide anytime. Those were the times i felt so fearful and helpless, especially when your role model just collapsed suddenly. Thank God for his grace, my mum is on the road to recovery and my parents relationship were restored. Through this crisis, i've learnt to cherish people around me even more. I've conquered whatever i've deafeated. Come what may devil. Bleah.

It's a whole lot of new experience transiting into a new school environment, meeting new friends and new things. I'm glad that i have great bimbs, great class, great school and great course and great lecturers and great CCA friends. I guess the next 2 and a quarter years in SP would be ultra exciting!

Wait. i'm suppose to evaluate and make resoulution. well, for the coming year, i would want to be a woman of...

Greater faith, greater love for people, greater discipline, greater joy, greater purity, greater faithfulness, greater patience, greater gentleness, greater anointing, greater discernment, greater wisdom, greater graciousness...

=DDD

2008-12-15T04:45:00.000-08:00

I'm back! This weekend is especially eventful! First thing first- Elyn and Shaun's holy matrimony! I went 'awww!!' like one million times. They're so so so sweet and Elyn is so pretty! =D It felt so good to see my old old cgm again. Some of them are no longer in church and i lost touch with some of them. Rekindle those fond old memories =D

Ushers for holy matrimony. All of us wore black and white co-incidentally!
Yippie! I took a photo with pastor!!! =DD Pastor look so cute! Group12 christmas cum appreciation party!!

Liangkai, my co-host!

Zech the hotel1!
Ben and Sharon!

A load of photos are still with Wanyun, Liangkai and Edward. Let's wait patiently. Patience is a virtue. AND TAN XIN YI CUT HER HAIR!!! That's like the most ridiculous thing on earth. and i perm it and half regretted it. I'm going to dye it tomo. Hopefully it'll turn out better. I'll try to churn out a pic and show you guys. Let me describe it in the mean time. It's not too short, but definitely shorter, about chest length. medium curl with my fringe pulled to the side and combine with the rest of the perm. haha. ok. use your imagination. =D

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS MY LONG HAIR(or a wig, or hair extensions)!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-07T06:03:00.000-08:00

Guess what.

I'm betrayed, stab-in-the-back and poisoned by my best friend-FOOD! And it's by the new burger king Bold meal. So much for being bold. Let me whine. I puke for more than 15times in the long silent night and mum's not home. When she's finally home and brough me to the doc, Miss doc diagnose me with food poisoning in 3 mins time and spend 15mins chatting with my mum. I nearly died sitting in the middle of 2 woman, oblivious to a poor fainting girl. After they've finished the weather discussion, i waited for more than 10mins for my medicine and the nurse seems to move with such extreme slow motion that every motion can be captured with some HD TV. Finally after what it seems like a zillion years, i'm finally able to go home. Just then, i entered the lift and thought i could finally faint on my bed. But behold, this old lady in the same lift punched every alternate button in the lift. She's probably deprived of her childhood or is mentally unsound. I nearly strangled her! Can you believe it? My house is so near yet so far. After another zillion years, i finally reached home-with more white hair and wrinkles.

I'm done =D Feel so much better now.

Oh gosh. I'm so so so worried about our DVPA project. Every group is only allowed one week to loan the equipments and i don't think i even know how to operate the tripod, let alone the camera. And we can't find our main actor.

Yes you. The one who's staring at this. Stop looking around. You. If you're a guy of chinese descent, between the age of 15-20, have a flair for acting, expressive, and able to cry at command, SUPERGIRL(our production name) NEEDS YOU!!!

'what rewards are there for taking up this role?' You bet! There'll be 5 pretty girls at your dispense, be your chauffeur, your bodyguard during the span of our filming. If everything goes well, we MIGHT submit our film for some film award and YOU can stand a chance to be talent-spotted by some renown director and gain your entry into stardom! Last but not least, your reward is in heaven =D

Also, a chauffeur is urgently needed too. B cos our group consist of 5 weak girls+1 of them is handicapped and we have like 1 tripod, 1 camera, 1 boom mike, 3 lighting lights to carry. And the locations that we're going is not that accesible. How can you bear to see 5 poor girls tumbling down mt faber, spoiling all the equipments and increasing the no. of handicap stats in Singapore. Appealing to all kind kind soul who owns a car, have sufficient strength to carry some of our equipments, we need you! cmon! We know you are our SUPERHERO! Join us and be part of the exciting crew for a wondrous production! Again, your reward is in heaven =D We'll promise you lots and lots of nice massage after it!

hahahha. I'm not kidding. I totally need People people people!!!! =DDD

Contact Xin/sha/venessa/christel or rachel now!

2008-12-04T06:10:00.001-08:00

When was the last time you were contended?
when was the last time you marvelled at the simplest things?
When was the last time you sang a love song out loud?

I jus did. =D
It was pure therapeutic taking a long bus ride and taking a long walk alone. The long walk reminds me of how i use to do that when our church were still in expo. Of how i would take a walk to MRT station way before the first bus and commune with God on the way.

I seldom post spiritual insights in this blog as non-christian read this blog too. But please pardon me. There's this overwhelming urge to pen down all the emotions i'm feeling now.

Sometimes it just becomes a habit to take God for granted, to take him as some 'blessings vending machine' where we recites our prayer list, play our part and quickly get it over and done with. Maybe we should take some time off, slow things down and linger in his presence.

I didn't pray for anyone, think of anything in particular but just allow whatever wants to come in to come in. I thought of where i am today and what i have. I certainly don't deserve all the grace and favor. Who am i? I'm just another ordinary girl with limited talents. I'm not that eloquent, not that charismatic, not that adequate. But still, He does not despise the little that i have and blesses me with far more blessings i deserve. As i look back on all the miracles that took place, i can't help but be amaze by how His ways are always higher then mine. Indeed, God uses the foolish things of the world.

Dear Jesus,
Thank you for loving me despite of my flaws and accepting me for who i am. Words alone can't express my gratitude and my adoration for You. I'll always remember how You cheered me on when my world crumbles, how You pick me up when i fall and how You encouraged me on the race of faith. Do You remember those sarcrifices, that simple act of obedience? Forget them not. Forget me not. I'm still here. At the same place i first met You. Help me remain faithful to the things that You've given stewardship to. The cry of my heart is to bring glory to Your name. Here i am. use me.

Forever and forever yours.

Hapiness is not measured by the wealth you acquire, but by the contentment of a merry heart.

2008-12-01T04:38:00.000-08:00

This video totally made my day :)

Yay! Jesus is my superhero!
Better than powerpuff girls, better than barbie doll, better than disney princess.

Jesus is my hero, my best friend!!!

2008-11-25T16:35:00.000-08:00

I had a most perculiar conversation with my mum the other day.

MOTHER and DAUGHTER talks about a taboo issue-boyfriends. And guess what? It is the official green-light for DAUGHTER to have a boyfriend. Let's witness this memorable event.

Dinner table
Chirpy music fades in

Mid-long shot of MOTHER and DAUGHTER eating and chatting.

DAUGHTER: My first cgl is getting married in 2 weeks time!

MUM: oh! so is mei mei going?

DAUGHTER: she can go if she wants to.

MUM: okok. So, how about you? Do you have anybody in mind?

Chirpy music fades off.
Dramatic music fades in

DAUGHTER: me?! *choke on rice* hmmmm. Not really anyone as in anyone in mind. There's just this nice guy-Mr X Factor( let's just call him that)

DAUGHTER( voice over) : shite! what did i just say?!
*camera close up on DAUGHTER's expression*

Dramatic music fades off.

MUM: wow! *Stared in disbelief and break into a girlish giggle*

DAUGHTER: muummmmyy! don't give me that face!

MUM: So how old is he? Is he studying now? which school is he in? is he interested in you?... ( this bombarding of questions continues for 10mins)

DAUGHTER: * bury head in shame*

Fades out to black.

-End of part 1-

My mum continues in part 2 by bombarding my poor sis with questions, asking her to create opportuity for us and pyscho her to persuade me to bring him home.

Gosh! i merely blurted out some random name and my mum keeps harping on it. Frankly speaking, i don't even know Mr x factor well. We're mere aquantaince and i guess we didn't even have a proper face to face conversation before. Mann! My entire clan would know about this by this week. Trust me. My mum is the one of the most resourceful woman around.

Let's keep our fingers cross and wish for the best.

2008-11-24T05:40:00.000-08:00

*Blow*, *Ha chew*, *wipe*!
No more dust and cobweb here! =))

I've been extremly busy with Asia conference, school and so much more!
Asia conference is totally mind-blowing!
6 world class speaker, 5 power-packed days, 3 expo halls, 19,00 foreign delegates, 1 Asia.
The presence of God was so strong in every service. Hearts were strengthened and miracles came true. =DDD And i'm so more than glad to reunite with my expo friends! =)

However, i spolit a pair of shoe, rolled/tumbled/slipped down some ~~thorny~~ grassy 'hill' while catching the last train and inherite a big patch of cuts on my leg. Poor leg got disfigured. =((

Anyway, it gave me excuses to pon-ten! hahah. I can't believe it! Holidays is ONLY 13 days away! OMG! and we are 6days away from december! December is my fav fav fav month of the year!

December= christmas jingles everywhere+ sparkling festive deco+ my birthday+ Jesus's birthday+ many other random ppl's birthday+ year end sales+ presents+ boxing day+ christmas feast+ thanksgiving party+ new year countdown!!!

How can 30 days possibly contain all these excitement! And i'm so going to change my 'haha' to 'hoho' and sing birthday song and christmas jingles everyday in dec!

=DD

2008-11-13T04:20:00.000-08:00

Hello hello!!
Half of this post shall be dedicated to mel because today is her big day!

To dearest Meli:
HAPPY BIRTDAY MELI!!! As i'm typing this post, i bet u're gorging yourself silly at some restaurant. ;) Hahhha. Be careful not to dirty your pretty maxi dress! Just want to say that you've been a wonderful friend to be with, someone whom i can share my joy and sorrow with. I know Miss Trudy said that we shouldn't use cliches in good writing, but i'm still so going to say a big corny 'XIN LOVE YOU!!!' Muacks muacks muacks!

Here are some photos of our birthday 'plot'. We shitted mel and told her that we're going to throw eggs at her, put a bucket of curry powder on top of the door and give her a good bash. Mel got so scared that she wore her raincoat, just in case we tear down her birthday dress. And i prepare an umbrella for her. The entire class look so so so comical as we stroll down to fc6. Opps. and we forgot all about poor Christel in wheelchair.

Oh yes. A BIG Happy birthday to Cystal(come) too!!! =))

Before my memory fails me, here's some peektures of our leaders outing on sat! We went to balestier for bah kut tei and swensens for ice cream supper! And it's a rare union! Everyone is present for the first time! =)

Yummy yummy bah kut tei!!!

We hearts hot buffy guys ('V')

Flowers girl=)

Guess wallets rocks!

Waiting for seats in Swensens.

Big reunion!!

Can you believe it? We all managed to squeese into Alan's 7-seater car! hahahah.

Today is a beautiful day and i'm in an unusually chirpy mood. =)

2008-11-06T06:25:00.000-08:00

Heyo! The pics from Ting's shopping blog are ready! But i'm not going to show you guys all of it cos i had a flu from the dust halfway and i look extremly horrible. haahah. Here are a few slightly better ones. Contact me if you're interested!

Pls don't laugh k. They're not photoshop-ed. That explains the cellulite and freakles. I didn't even put on a wee bit of make up. Take it as a halloween ~~trick~~ treat! hahahah.

I finally survived the school week. There's 2 individual projects due this week plus morning prayer meeting plus a bad flu plus 2 CCA meetings, all in a row.

My IDEA teacher say i might be getting a 80 for my IDEA project even though it wasn't very impressive and i'm quite contended with my DVPA project. =)

I'm also very very honoured to be able to vice-chair FO's social gathering and be publication IC for CSCC day.

Thank God for His grace and mercy! =)

oh yesh.

Happy Birthday Mum!

Happy Birthday Gina!

Happy Advanced birthday Sean guo liang!

Speedy recovery christelly dear! Bimbs miss u loads loads!

2008-11-02T05:29:00.000-08:00

OMG! i haven't blog for so long! It's been a crazy crazy week. My life is bursting at it's seam with lots and lots of activities! Let me ~~bore~~ excite you guys with it!

Monday
A happy-very-late deepavali to u guys! :)
Initial plan was to go for 81's birthday party but change my mind to watch high school musical 3 with my ushers. But most couldn't make it last min so i ended up going to Ting's house. I modelled for her to-be-sell-online clothes.

Private camera woman+ striking ridiculous pose+ tons of clothes to mix&match= FUN!!

I shall upload the pics after ting photoshop off the cellulite and freckles.

Tuesday
I went sakae-ing wit BFF after school! It's been so long since i last meet all them up. Ting brough along 2 of her friends. As usual, it's always feel so good to chat with them over a sumptoous meal.
Quality fellowship i must say!

Wednesday
Our very kind lecturer cancelled the lessons. But still, 04 went photo-storyboarding. We starred in each other's film. I'm kelvin's crush in Dennis's film, Anna's friend in Sean's film, female ghost in Christel's film and spolit brat in Mel's film. Split personality! hahah.

Thursday

i met up with Sharon after school! we went crystal jade-ing and frolick-ing! Sharon rock my life! It's another quality fellowship time! =)

Friday

04 went to Don't forget your lyrics recording at mediacorp! It's a hell lot of fun grooving and dancing to the music! The bimbs were sitting at the back but in the end we were so groovy that some hot-dude transfer us down to the premium seats. I think we're on national tv! hahahah. The hot dude is very very very cute( emphasis on very). omg! He's got the perfect asian eyes, sharp features, nice macho built and this sexy goatee. Hahahh.

Saturday

It's service and pledging day and i serve communion. =) Yesh. I pledge IT down. :D I went KTV after service with usual gang! It's so so so so fun!!!

Poor Zech dragged into a bunch of act-cutes.

I nearly fainted when liang kai and rui xiang tried the Elva xiao rexona pose.

Yesh. we sing till dawn! I ended the week with a bam!

Looking forward to another adventurous week. =)

More photos to be uploaded. =)

ciao!

2008-10-23T06:30:00.000-07:00

The beatitudes of Friendship

Blessed are the friends

with a joyful spirit,

for their joy shall be multiplied.

Blessed are the friends

who offer good advice and counsel,

for their wisdom shall be appreciated.

Blessed are the friends

who truly listened and understand,

for theirs is a rare and special gift from heaven.

Blessed are the friends

who provide solace and comfort,

for their kindness shall never be forgotten.

Blessed are the friend

who remain loyal and true,

for they shall be called most worthy.

Blessed are the friends

who help us in need for they are friends

not just in word,

but in deed.

Big thank-you to:

Dearest w387 and w481 for providing spiritual support and the generosity for sharing your food and things among those who have needs.

Rainbow club for always making me feel young whenever i hang out with you guys.

Usher leaders for always believing in me and all the endless joy and laughter.

BFFs for the faithful companionship, time and love! Our friendship is half a decade and going strong!

Cancri for bringing extra colours and vibrant to my poly life. Cancri Cancri rocks rocks rocks!

CSCC chicks for crazy moments in camp and club. You guys are the best camp songs singer and dancer. btw, MY NAME IS JOE!!! hahahahahaha.

DMC04!!!!!!!!!!!! You guys made lectures and tutorial so fun! iie lurb euu guys lotsa lotsa!! muackkz muacckx!!

BIMBS BIMBS!! Thanks all for sharing weal and woe with me. Those fond moments of laughing hysterically or crying over a stupid advertisement never fails to bring a smile. XOXO!

Those not featured here, fret not! I still love you guys! I just don't have peektures of you guys. hahah. =DD Bottomline is, Take photo with me! hahahah. =DD

2008-10-16T05:43:00.000-07:00

Xinyi Heart lectures & tutorials!!

Omg. i can't believe i actually love lessons. But i tell you. This sem's module are really really interesting! There's this video application thingy where we get to learn how to use professional cameras( those use in filming) and write our own short film script! I was churning out ideas and getting inspiration from every trivial things or person that i get into contact with. I want to make a close to home kinda film based on controversial issues and one that challenge values, film that provoke people to think and act. Something like Jack neo's movie or wall e would be perfect. I never knew writing a script or producing a short film(let alone a movie!) would be so time-consuming and tough. Salute to all directors and script writer!=)

I love news writing too! Miss Trudy is a very experienced lecturer and it's extremly interesting getting into the backstage of news printing. She is so pro that she could recognise all the different fonts used. And every single details in the newspaper is there for a purpose. I wonder if you guys notice the colour bar at the bottom of some pages? Newspaper are printed with only 4colours and those bars are an indication for the print workers that all the colours have been printed on. so cool rite!

Even my worst nightmare of using Zebrush in IDEAS is assured. Miss Lee promised us that she would allow us to use play-doh as subsitute if we couldnt master Zebrush. hahahah. I'm starting to enjoy school!

Econs weren't that much of a positive module but i believe listening attentively in class and doing tutorials would help quite a bit.

FC6 is revamped. It looks so much brighter and spacious now. Every pillar is of a different bright colour. But i would very much prefer the old dimmer fc6. The new Fc6 looks too cheerful for its good. You know how some extremly cheerful people who skip around with a bounce always piss you off.

Mum's considering shifting house. If all goes well, i'll be able to design my room all over again!!!

EDGE's tomo!!! Va-Va-Vroom!! I'm off for another eventful weekend! My date with Daddy God!

XOXO

2008-10-14T04:21:00.000-07:00

HI ALL!! I offer my sincerest apology for not updating so often. Life is more than sitting in front of my lappie and punching my life story into this blog. I've been so busy and sick this past week. But, i've got so much to share!

First thing first, let me tell you guys about ICE camp! It's the slackest camp i've ever been to in SP. There's no rolling around in mud, no sicko-mouth-to-mouth-passing-jellybean-games, no need to attend disco night and we can even sneak out for supper at night! The people there were such great sport and fun but still, i miss CSCC camps. Nonetheless, i truly enjoyed myself and expanded my social circle. Grp 7 rocks!

A big thank you to people who made this camp possible, Christel for all the laughter( and snorting), Janel for all the dumb blond moment, Cystal for sharing and listening to me during the ghost movie, Xiu yun, Aaron and johnson for making CSCC the best club there, Grp7 for the fondest memories, my night walk partner for protecting and ensuring that i don't fall off the stairs during night walk, apologies to chris for starting the lee hsien loong name-calling thingy and all the eyecandies for brightening up my days.

Secondly, PR's first and only event(Movie marathon) is a blast! The organising commitee truly enjoyed the fruits of our sucess after a long ardous journey of planning and meetings. We had so much fun behind the scene shopping for tidbits, making sandwiches and decorating the room! However, we sort of fumbled up a little during our marathon when some seniors complaint that the beehoon has turned sour and the second movie bore them to death. But we manage to save the day by screening 2 other interesting movie and stuffed their mouth with lots and lots of tidbits. Great job PR! Oh yesh, a few of us stayed back to cleared up the mess and we all fall asleep half way! It was so so so fun. Everyone was resting on the beanbag gossiping about hot guys and gals in campus when everyone just fall in a deep sleep. Like what happen in sleeping beauty's castle where everyone fall into a deep deep sleep. hahha.

Thirdly, 04 is back to school! Back to seeing my dear bunch of darlings wreak havoc at fc6! 04 is so democratic! We had a ballot on our project group mates to ensure that everyone bond and work with everyone. My groupmates are Sha, Luiting, Venessa and Sean. I'll stick to you guys for this entire sem!

We work with filming cameras for the first time today! The effects are so cool. It could make you dissapear like a ghost or make your action slow-mo!

And i adore the advertising module. Miss Pei say i've got talent in that. hahha.

I got into Psychology&counselling for GEMS. The lecturer is very motherly and wierd in a funny manner. Not too bad. i'm in the same gems class as willie and kienan! surprise surprise!

And i fall sick on the first day of school! I look extremly horrible with red running nose, half close eyes and bits of tissue paper all over my face. Oh ya. I've been reading this book 'I kissed dating goodbye'.( Don't laugh Mel!) I was so convicted by some of the stuff inside that i'm seriously considering not dating till i'm ready for marriage. Mel told me to read it when i'm 37. hahah. Let's see how long will my convictions last.

=DD Till then!

2008-10-02T05:54:00.000-07:00

Look at the modules i'll be taking next sem!!

Web publishing no javascript please!!!!!
Fundamentals of economics
Issues and viewpoints
Introduction to public relations and advertising
Digital video production and application
Journalism 1: News writing
Innovation, design and enterprise in action

Seems rather awesome yet intimidating. No more hunk-ogling or gossiping in fc6! Xinyi shall concentrate on her studies and pull up her devastating GPA. *Fingers crossed!*

Oh yesh. There's this GEMS thingy, some extra 'enrichment' stuff to take. Almost everything seems so fun! But i'm so interested in either french language and culture or pyschology and counselling. French is the language of romance and i always thought that people who learn pyschology have some kind of psychic power. So uber cool!

Can you believe it! i'm going to another camp next week. Its's the ICE camp! I bet it's gonna be so fun interacting with people from other clubs. Going to camp is the best way to save $$. You get food, accomodation, shirt, fun and friends for just $10! hahah!

But i'm scared that my manicured&pedicured nails( it's a pretty blue with silver glitter!!!) would be ruin and my glitter hair extension would fall out( even though it's a barely visible 5 strands). I spend quite a bit on 'temple repair' and i wouldn't let my happiness be short-lived!

Life's getting busier and busier and i haven't got time to breathe cos' everything is going so fast and holidays is coming to an end soon with so much un-accomplished task and sometimes i feel like a loser doing so many things at a go pretending to be incredible superwoman yet flopping all of them and crumbling like a cookie . I need Proper time management!

Till then!

XOXO

2008-09-27T08:13:00.000-07:00

I'm deprived of chocolate and cheese and ice cream-all thanks to those evil chinese merchants! Who can we trust these days? Even our dearest Rabbit milk candy who grew up with us turns out to be poisonous.

Trust is something so fragile and brittle. As the saying goes, it takes a long time to build up trust but a minute to destroy it. Its high time that the chinese government incoporate social and ethnic responsiblility into ther businesses.

That's such a random topic to talk about but i can't think of any other stuff to talk about. Btw, i'm still alive. Even though i might not be blogging that often, but i'll still be hopping and loitering around. Next week is going to be a busy week! The to-do list seems endless and suffocating.

Sunday- Meet up with Lynn's cg for some party planning, Usher leader prayer meeting in the evening.

Monday- Pre-movie marathon movie screening at Jeremy's house. It's going to be an overnight and turmoil night.

Tuesday- Rest! i need to sleep after screening movie for 6hours straight right.

Wednesday- Manicure and shopping with Sharon!

Thursday- Annoy and call people again! Work duh.

Friday- Sushi tei-ing+ movie/pool/k box with Power Puff Girls!

Saturday- Church

Sunday- Cg

and the cycle continues on...

Some pics for our sourcing-for-door-gift-day. Many thanks to Welfare people who offered their invaluable help to PR. =DD

2008-09-23T05:02:00.000-07:00

I survived LTC!!!!

Mann, i can't wait to tell you guys about CSCC's leadership training camp! It's super duper fun and is one of the toughest camp i've been to. I shall blog about some of the interesting activities that we did. I'm in group Powerpuff! and my group consist of Kat, Daphne, Edward and Darrick. it's gonna be a long post!

Amazing race
I nearly died during the amazing race. It's crazy. we sprint/ran/jog/walk/crawl from dover to clementi to toh guan road to jurong east to bukit batok back to jurong east, clementi and dover.

In between all these running, we had to complete task like helping some random elderly to carry their heavy grocery home, walk up and down some flats and going from door to door to fill a bag with recycle-able products. On top of that, we also need to do push up, sit up, crunches along the journey. Imagine a group of smelly stinking hyper-active kids doing push up in the middle of a shopping centre! But nevertheless, my most wondrous group mbrs kept me going with talks of having sashimi for dinner and plans of our group outing after camp. We finally finish our race and exceeded the time limit by 45mins!

Midnight Fire drill scare
While we were deep asleep in lala land, some GP(game personnal) came into our bunk and shout 'wake up! fire! run!' While everyone was in such an extreme shock and daze, Janel slept like a dead log. we almost threw her down after shaking her and screaming in her ears to no avail. After a good 8mins, everyone was finally downstair. Of course we kana pump as some people was missing. And dear Christel fall asleep in pumping position! hahah!

Blind man's trail
I love Blind man trail! It's so sick and dirty! Everyone was blind-folded and was lead to this field where we were tortured. We roll in this sheet full of left-over food( i felt a chicken bone!) and some stinky liquid. After that, some Gps made a special 'facial foam' for me using flour, water and some unknown stuff and rub in on my face. Thank God there's no egg this time round. Some suai people even got to stick their hands in the toiliet bowl and fish for 2 5cents coin.

Confidence walk/night walk
I walked through the night walk alone without crying!! i'm so proud of it! We were supposed to watch some ghost and horror movie before going on the night walk. But Janel, Christel, Gina and me end up praying and singing christian songs instead. In the end, Joshua, Edward, Kat and Meng Xi joined in our prayer even when they weren't christian. God is really good. Everyone felt this sense of peace and courage immediately after the prayer. =)

We got to walk past the known-to-be-haunted red bridge and into this female toliet. Then we walk into the toliet alone with the lights off and into one of the cubicle to perform a task. The first 3 cubicles were locked and there's a 'head' on top of the second cubicle but i didn't notice it. I entered the last open cubicle and suddenly theres a loud shriek and banging at the cubicle beside. I screamed and flush the toiliet( which is the task) before dashing out. After that, I walk into the staff room( without lights again) and some ambushed 'ghost' jump out and scare me again. After that, we walk out of business block into the MM workshop area. I remembered Sher's ghost story about the banana tree there and i ran with all my might, ignoring the 'ghost' in white uniform and some other random ghost. After running for what seems like a million years, i finally reached enginering block. Then, i took this pitch dark lift up to level4 which stop at the second and third storey too. Some 'ghost' screamed whenever the lift door open which got quite irritating instead of scary. I finally reached my bunk in a piece. *phew*

Outdoor Cooking

We had to go through a few station games to earn our dinner that night. There's this particular game in which we had to stand on the edge of this stage and free-fall down and trust our team mates to catch us. I was so scared initially. I had height phobia but for dinner's sake, i manage to overcome that fear. =)

There's also this game where we had to move like a caterpillar, with your leg on the leg of the person in front and move with our hands only. And i had a big tear on my palm. it's extremly painful!

After redemming all our food, we had our outdoor cooking and darrick cut his arm with the tin can accidentally. It was such a deep cut that he needed 4 stiches at the hospital. We suddenly realised the importance of him is when he's not around. Thank God he's alright now. =)

Camp fire
We had a great time singing and dancing camp songs but the ultimate is still shim night! Edward
wore a black lacy bra and sean show off his sexy legs in a mini skirt! Sean look so so so pretty!!! it was a sizzling sexy night and crayon even taught us the art of seduction! haha!

Post camp lunch!

We had lunch at Holland V subway and we conquer the entire mini subway restaurant! Look at This!

Janel oh janel!

okok. I'm finally done. Before i end, i just want to thank our dearest camp commitee for making this camp so sucessful and fun! I also wanna thank Powerpuff for all the motivation, laughter and friendship. i also wanna thank the entire LTC CSCC peeps for all the joy and love! love you guys!!

LTC! SHOUT LIKE THUNDER, MOVE LIKE LIGHTNING!!!

2008-09-16T06:22:00.000-07:00

I've been typing and hitting the 'backspace' button for more than a dozen times. I don't have pictures to show, constructive story to tell or intersting event to recall. Gosh! My life is a big fat bore. bleahx.

Tan Boon Hock( that's me) is going to eat my life away. i'm going to stuff myself with lotsa sushi and pizza. Then i'll grow into a 200-pound ugly, go for plastic surgery at some reknown clinic in Korea, turned into a anorexic pole who end up throwing up all the sushi and pizza. Suddenly, i would be talent-spotted to be some top skinny model. I'll parade on the runway in Paris in the most outrageous neon colour branded swimsuit, fall in love with one of the ah-gua designer and live happily ever after. After that, i would stay at home to cook, clean and wash, transforming into a yellow-face anorexic pole. Maybe i'll have a dozen of kids and my weight would re-bounce back to 200-pound. Then i'll continue to binge on sushi and pizza, and become fatter and fatter untill *POOF*, i burst like a balloon.

Haha. I need to unleash my pent-up creativity. I'm seriously BORED! Can anyone give me any interesting yet meaningful things to do? i'm tired of calling up random people, pestering them, listening to all those wierd uncle's rants and hear the phone slamming down right in my ear. But then again. building fund is coming. I need these extra cash. Oh, Life's great dilemma.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! Sometimes i just wish that i can be invisible for a while. Just float around and stare at people without having to smile and appear friendly and gracious. How nice it would be to intrude into people's privacy and see what your friends are doing now. Like a casper friendly ghost.

Thanks for reading all this crap. I know you guys are one of the most patient-oozing people around. But be careful, i might be spying on you, standing behind you. hahahah! =) it's one of my cranky mood again. But don't worry, i'll be going to Denissy's house tomo for our class harry potter marathon. It's a party! yesh. and i'll be away for CSCC leadership training camp from fri-monday! so looking forward to it!!! =D Life's simple joy is to be simple.

2008-09-08T22:47:00.000-07:00

Lord, since the day I saw You first,

My soul was satisfied;

And yet, because i see in part,

I'm searching, more to find.

While everyone was engrossed in a time of worship, a soft incomprehensional noise disrupt the harmonious melody. It was a faint screaking voice coming from the corner of the room. Unable to contain her curiosity, Sun went to check it out. Lo and behold, she saw this mute and deaf woman trying to 'sing' along with the music. Even though she could never hear the melody or sing in tune, all she ever want is to worship God with all her remaining strength. 'Erh.. ah.. ah..' she babbled on, ignoring the disdain look on her neighbour's face. In people's eyes, they may mock at the woman and her worship, but i could imagine how daddy God in heaven would beamed at her and enjoy the most genuine and beautiful worship ever.

I was reminded of this story Bee once told us. The most beautiful worship comes from the purest heart. A heart that is unquenchable, undivided, unpredictable, unstoppable, undignified and undone. I was reading this book 'unquenchable worshipper-coming back to the heart of worship' for the third time. But yet, everytime i read it, i would have a new revelation.

I've been Martha for so long, busy serving yet never realise that i've neglected him. I've forgotten that the core pupose for serving Him is out of love for Him and His people. Of course it's an honour and privileage to be able to serve. But sacrifices have to be made like going for extra sevice to mantain that intimate relationship with Him. It's time to be Mary, kneeling at the feet of God, enjoying His presence and love!

oh yes. before i go, here's some pics from our usher outing!

Check out more pics at our site at http://umg12.multiply.com/ =)))

oh ya. another pic of 4e8 taken during teachers day. =DD

2008-09-04T22:28:00.000-07:00

OWNER WANTED!!!!!!

Attention all testeosterone-fulled beings!

Sick and tired of spending Valentines' day alone?
Wish you had a companion for a movie?
Want a pair of comforting arms to cry on in your most despairing time?
Bide farewell to these unbearable moments with our newest invention- The XinYi Doll!!

XinYi doll is the latest innovation created by world's top designer, Mr Jehova God. Mr Jehova is known for his skilled workmanship and He places strong emphasis on quality material. When interviewed, Mr Jehova said 'I spend a long time researching and creating different parts of it. It's one of the most time-consuming creation. But, nevertheless, I'm extremly proud of this creation.'
Mr Jehova's creation can be found globally, and it ranges from tiny creeping ants to enormously huge elephants.

Characteristic of XinYi doll

- Portable.
- Has waist-long black curls.
- Weights a mere xxkg.
- Length of 163cm.
- Waterproof.
- Sunproof.( rather immune to sun's ray)
- Great source of Vitamin C *sunshine!*
- Of a Chinese descent with a hint of malay heritage.
- Proficient in English, Mandrain and undertands dialect.
- Runs on calcium, proteins, carbo, fats and sodium.
- Run best with Japenese cuisine.
- Thrive in optimum temperature of 25 degrees. Running nose denotes extreme temperature.
- Best clad in frilly frocks
- Able to sing and dance. Well-verse in nursery rythmes and fruit dance.
- Excellent form of entertainment.
- Perform best with encouragement and love.
- Cooks barely edible food.
- Sewing is almost impossible.
- But, has a genuine heart.

Characteristics of Owner

- Man between the age of 18-22.
- Mr Jehova is first in his life.
- From XinYi's church
- A Cgc, Cgl or ministry leader.
- Able to lead.
- Higher spiritual level.
- Strong discernment.
- Tall. ( preferably 180cm and above)
- Fun-loving.
- Has excellent moral values.
- Values humour.
- Pleasant-looking.
- Sharp dressing sense.
- Indulges in comfort food.
- Generous.
- Servanthood attitude.
- Gentlemanliness.
- Takes initiative.
- Optimist.
- Sincere.
- Has a dream/goal in life.
- Love kids.

Disclaimer: 1) Please pardon my poor photoshop skills.
2) Please try not to puke even if you feel like. I will not compensate for any damage done to your coms.
3)I'm not in urgent need of having a companion but it won't do any harm advertising myself a little.
4) Life's short, have fun!

=)))) weeeeeeee!!!

2008-09-01T05:42:00.000-07:00

Quick update, our cg multiplied! Here's our most awesome and tearjerker multiplication video.

I'm so looking forward to the plans that God have installed for me in this new(not exactly that new) cg. It's the beginning of a new chapter, a new season. God always have something up his selves.

In W154( my first Cg),it's one of the most gruelling time getting discipled and incorporating basic values. I remember the times where i would be so scared of Elyn, especially the discipleship lesson on punctuality. She'll make us stand up and sit down as she count to 10. Whoever is the last to stand up would get into trouble. The purpose of it is to make us stand up even before she start counting, to get out of the house way before church start. Oh. those memorable times. =)

In my second cg W386, i learnt the importance of fellowship. As i'm the youngest then, i was always pampered.( sometimes excluded when they go clubing or drinking) I love the times where April, Jon, Giselle, Edward, Yu ping, Jun xiong and i would just enjoy each other's company and chill at airport after service. The times where we would haunt for new makan places and eat all day long. =D

In my third and current cg W387, it's one of the gruelling moment of rising up and standing in the gap. It really shocked me when i found out that i'm one of the oldest. There goes all the comfort and pamper. For once, i almost wanted to request for change of cg. But thankfully, i sort out my thinking and decide to stay. =) It's in this cg that i've grown the most. Thanks bee and wendy for being such wondrous leaders. =)

2008-08-28T07:22:00.000-07:00

What if you wake up one day and found out that the guy you're madly in love with is a Vampire?

'And then, as the room went black, i was suddenly hyper-aware that Edward was sitting less than an inch from me. I was stunned by the unexpected electricity that flowed through me, amazed that it was possible to be more aware of him than i already was. A crazy impulse to reach over and touch him, to stroke his perfect face just once in the darkness, nearly overwhelmed me. I crossed my arms tightly across my chest, my hands balling into fists. I was losing my mind.'

Let me introduce this super duper dope book! TWILIGHT!!! This book is SO awesome! It's a high school romance flick with a twist. Protecting the girl he love V.S Satisfying his blood-thirsty desire. Feel his struggle and pains. This book keeps you on the edge of your chair and makes you fall head over heels in love with Edward the vampire.

'Deeply seductive and irresistibly compelling, Twilight is an extraordinary love story that will stay with you long after you have turned the final page.'

Some brief update of my life. I've been productive!

1) i work for some teachers' day seminar in expo on monday.

2) i bake cupcakes! Though it failed rather miserably. it's my first attempt at baking.( other than home econ lessons in which i've graduate from 3 years ago)

3) i cook spagh for cg! Although it's half cooked. This is a bowl of digusting leftover spagh.

4) i have a telemarketing job. today's my second day of work. i'm getting the hang of it! some steady income for the hols! =))

5) i manage to organise the skeleton for usher outing.

=DDDDDDDDD

2008-08-25T05:19:00.000-07:00

Part 1

Laughter is the best medicine. Let missy Tan give a dose of 'medicine' for some wretched soul that chanced upon this blog. It's the favourite sexist joke of all time!

Q: What is the closest thing similar to a woman's period?

A: Your salary, it comes once a month lasts about 5-7 days and if it doesn't come means you are in big trouble.

Q: What three things are common between the sun and woman's underwear?

A: Both are hot, both look better while going down and both disappear at night.

Q: Why do men ask for a woman's hand in marriage?

A: Because they are tired of using their own.

Q: What's common between men and video?

A: Both go backward... forward... backward... forward... backward.... forward... stop and eject.

Q: What goes in dry, comes out wet, and gives warm satisfaction?

A: A teabag.

Q:7 qualities to be a perfect wife:

A:Beautiful,ResponsibleEnergeticAdorableSweet Truthful andSelf-Organized.In short, she must have good B.R.E.A.S.T.S

Q: What is the similarity between men and rats?

A: Both keep searching for new HOLES.

Q: What's the difference between biology and sociology?

A: When the baby looks like his dad, then it is biology. When the baby looks like the neighbour, then it is sociology.

Q:Doctor: You look so weak & exhausted. Are you having 3 meals a day as I have advised?

A:Lady: Doctor, I thought you had said 3 males a day.

Q: Girl friend & boy friend go for a movie. In the dark, a mosquito enters the girl's skirt. Guess where it would have bitten?

A: The boy's hand.

Q:Tarzan and the animals went to the river to take a bath. Tarzan removed his clothes. All the animals laughed. Tarzan asked 'Why'?

A: The animals told him...........'Your tail is in the front'.

Part2

Good morning/afternoon/night(whatever is applicable) class. Today, we are going to discuss about God's most wonderful creation-woman. And as how you guys have learn in history and social studies, we need to cross-reference to other people's view to obtain a non-biased point of view. We have a few sources today. let us take a look at them.

This is a Chemist's view of woman.

Some Geographist's(if there's ever such a word) view.

Another technician's view.

View of some businessman who's well-verse in graph.

Finally, a mathematician's view.

we have come to the end of class, your homework is to analyse each view and give a detailed 1000 words essay on woman. hahhahaahahah!!!

Disclaimer: Missy Tan or Teacher Tan is not responsible for any provoked reaction regardless of a positive one or negative one. Any view of yours is strictly based on your perception and your tolerance of humour. =DD

2008-08-21T21:04:00.000-07:00

WEE!!! Exams are finally over. The long-awaited holidays are finally here! *summersault thrice in the air, back leap, front leap and 10 jumping stunts!* =DD

Exams really drive people mad. Christel is insane beyond insane. While we were busy cramming factors into our tiny puny brain, Christel photoshop-ed our face.

i turned into a pouty Cinderella overnight.

Mel evolved into a stick of Chanel lipstick.

Sher is some new bred of purple dinosaur.

Christel is the scareliest!! She's the fish in her all time fav fish behoon!! hahaah!!!! This is how cute my Christelly baby is. I'm so sorry if the above images scare the hell out of you. Christel's photoshop skills sucks. haha.

I'll spare you guys from the otherwise revolting image. Here's a normal and decent pic of us helping out during 'She's got it'. (Some campaign to discourage woman from smoking) I'll miss the bimbs so much! =D

Sentimentals aside, let's set some goals for this holiday. I can't possibly let an entire month fly by without being productive.

1) Thou shall replenish my sleep.

2) Thou shall indulge in carnal desire.( feasting&shopping!)

3) Thou shall watch every possible disney cartoon that i can find.

4) Thou shall go gyming with Ting and shed those FATS.

5) Thou shall learn something new. ( another french word/vulgarity, another song, another guitar chord)

6) Thou shall meet up with friends!

7) Thou shall read and finish a book.

8) Thou shall bake!

9) Thou shall organise some form of usher outing.

10) Thou shall matchmake. (Pastor and prime minister have been encouraging us to get attached.) *Hereby raising my antenna and is actively looking out for eligible partner for me and my eligible friends.*

My goal list seems rather fufilling. I guess i'll be productive this month! (Christel! How PRODUCTIVE are you? hahaha! )

last thing,

2008-08-17T05:48:00.000-07:00

Mummy's sitting on the edge of the seat, eyes glued to the silver screen and rubbing her hands anxiously. Dad's throwing dismayed sarcasm into the air, trying to agitate mummy with his not-so-flattering-comments. Sis is eating her fried chicken wing, oblivious to the surrounding. This cool-grown up daughter is on her lap top, pretending to be too cool for olympic. So typical! haha.

but i'm really proud of Singapore to have come this far. Singapore Jiayou! =DD

oh yes. i'm on S-T-U-D-Y break. but apparently, i haven't been exactly productive in mugging and there's marketing exam tomorrow! gosh. i just hope i can remember all that lau kok kok taught and crap my way through.

i'm way too distracted to concentrate! Holidays are coming Soon Soon Soon!!

Finally, a break from climbing up breverly hill, a rest from wan ton mee, a breather from FC6.
of course i'll miss school, eye candies and emo fish.

Have i told you about emo fish? Emo fish is my best or rather only fish friend. He(i'm certain it's a male fish) stay in the pond along the walkway. He's a very sweet fish. every morning he'll swim alongside as i walk to business block. Emo fish dosen't seem to have any friends. He's the biggest fish there so i guess he got no friends as old as him. it's very sad not to have a friend in the big pond. well, maybe he enjoy solitude. But i'll make it a point to wave my hands into the water or shout my hellos eveytime i pass by. oh yes. emo fish remind me of cow cat. She was the business block cat but she went missing for quite some time. there's rumours of her being put to sleep or given away. how sad. i miss cow cat. =(

2008-08-07T06:23:00.000-07:00

It seems like i haven't introduce my classmates formally. Here are our group photos taken just before the sem end.

This is taken on our formal presentation day!

This is taken after our last ICP tutorial, with our beloved Miss Rohannah. =)

Starting with the last row from the left is Shawn. He is a bass guitar and choc fanatic!

The Girl beside is Anabelle. she has a really cool naval piercing!

The small built guy behind the orange-shirt dude is Sean. He's our pimp and one of my best guy friend in class.

The guy slightly behind Sean is Dennis. He talks about lucid dreams alot and has a rather in-dept studies of dreams.

The guy beside Dennis with the fan is Nigel. He's the wierdest and most interesting character in class. oh ya. His hobby is cos-playing as zhu-ge liang.

Now back to the second row.

The short-hair girl in green is Vanessa. she's really quiet but she have a whole lot of nice topshop mini skirt.

The girl in black beside is Bei ling. She's a hip-hop dancer and we call her 'bei bei wo de bao bei' in class.

The guy in orange is Kelvin Jia Fu. He's the nicest guy in class, sometimes offering to help carry our laptops. He also share his christian contemporary music with me.

The girl beside with the Pink hairband is Shermaine. She's a very smart bimbo and one of my closest friends.

The lady in black head dress beside is Miss Rohannah. Her tutorials are really fun and she's very nice.

The girl in black and white is Az. She make vulgarities sound classy. A very difficult skill to master.

The Girl with the cap is Christel. she's one of my bestie who has a very 'distinctive' laughter.

The malay girl in black is Sha. she is a hard-core korean fan and share my love for Joo Ji Hoon.

Finally, we come to the first row. the petite girl in black vest is Laura. She's got character. i like her.

The girl in black dress who looks a bit insane is my dearest bestie Mel. She's my lovey lovey!

Lastly, i'm the one with the pink shawl. =DD

*Lui ting is not in this pic. she's the one is pink top beside me in the first pic.
*Faris is also not here. he's the one in black at the extreme right in the first pic.
*Rachel is not here too. she's a brillant chinese dancer
*Logesh is not here too. He's deliciously sarcastic.

=DD

2008-08-06T05:59:00.000-07:00

This few days wasn't exactly the brightest and happiest days. But still, i want to thank God for his ever-lasting strength and for giving me such loveliest friends.

1) A very close family member was diagnosed with depression. It wasn't very much shocking but the idea that your love one is ill makes you sick. I felt so sad and so heart-broken. How could a cheerful person just fades into depression so suddenly. I want to see you smile again. I'll always be there for you. I know you won't read my blog but i just want to tell you that I love you. You will definitely get well soon! =D

2) Satan's attack is back and he's not letting me off easy. There's this loud jarring voice that tells me that i'm stupid and ugly. And this another soft voice telling me to ignore them. I feel really horrible inside with all these 'angel-demon' struggle. At first, the darker force won slightly but good always prevail against evil! ahah!! i'm trampling the demons under my feet and slaying them with my leather-backed-book!

of course, my friends played a vital role in this battle. Thanks Mel for being there =D although you didn't speak much, i can feel your love and care strongly through the warmth of your hands. Thanks Benji and Sam for praying for me and encouraging me in MSN.
Finally, Thank you Jesus for speaking to me. In the darkest night, your soft whisper in my ears is the best comfort and reasurrance. Indeed, Your love surpass all understanding. Through the valley of storm and raging seas, in you i trust. =D

i found this poem in a really old book. it's really nice. A change from the 'fish story' i usually tell during usher briefing. (if you want to know what's a fish story, join usher and i'll tell you! hah!) next time i'll tell this 'oyster story'!

The Oyster

There once was on oyster

Whose story i tell,

Who found that some sand

Had got into his shell.

It was only a grain,

But it gave him great pain.

For oysters have feelings

Although they're so plain.

Now, did he berate

The harsh workings of fate

That had brought him

To such a deplorable state?

Did he curse the government,

Cry for election,

And claim that the sea should

Have given him protection?

No-he said to himself

As he lay on a shell,

Since i cannot remove it,

I shall try to improve it.

Now the years have rolled around,

As the years always do,

And he came to his ultimate

Destiny-stew.

And the small grain of sand

That had bothered him so

Was a beautiful pearl

All richly aglow.

Now, the tale has a morale;

For isn't it grand

What an oyster can do

With a morsel of sand?

What couldn't we do

If we'd only begin

With some of the things

That get under our skin.

author unknown

Have a great week ahead! i shall end with this!

'You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experiences by which you really stop to look fear in the face. you are able to say to yourself, "i lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along."

=DDDD

adios!!

2008-08-03T06:39:00.000-07:00

it's sunday again!! and i slept like nobody's business!! =))) afternoon naps are such a luxury!

in case you're wondering if i've been 'eating snake', let me show you evident of hard work. These are the fruits of my labour for Design Basics. This is my first-ever attempt at photoshop. They're not very well done but i hope i'll at least get a pass.

i'm doing on Loreal whitening product. This is a print ad for it.

This is the web banner. Complete with the help of Asher. =))

oh yesh. i went to Festival Of praise on friday and saturday! Parachute band is so doopppee!! i totally enjoy myself despite my very-extremly-poor-suffering-feet in my poor-old-retiring-heels. the entire place was so charged up and hyped. And i served in floor area. it's so close to the stage and the presence is like wow wow. =DD

i better stop procastinating and start my revision for i-see-pee and fundamental of marketing. *dreads*

back to sch.

monday blues.

2008-07-29T04:41:00.000-07:00

here's the long awaited tag quiz frm sher&log!

instructions: don’t read the questions until you named the 20 people . at the end , choose 5 people to do this .

1. melissa
2. shermaine
3. christel
4. Qi ting
5. pei shi
6. wen wei
7. sean
8. kelvin
9. Faris
10. jing yi
11. janel
12. bee leng
13. feng soon
14. angela
15. sharon
16. boon xiong
17. mitchell
18. jin sheng
19. vivian
20. hui shan

where did you meet no. 14(angela).
- Boon lay sec. she's my sec sch frien+church friend!

what will you do if you never meet no. 1(melissa)
- NOOOO!! i'll probably die of boredom in class.

what if no. 9(Faris)& no. 20(hui shan) dated?
-OMGosh! impossible impossible. faris is malay, hui shan is chinese. faris is 17, hui shan is 13. faris is ..., huishan is ... you get the idea.

will no. 6(wen wei) & no. 17(mitchell) date?
-i don't think they even know each other! hmmm...

describe no. 3(christel)
-Christel is one of the bubblest girl i've ever met. everything sets her laughing and snorting. hee. i love christel! =DD

describe no. 7(sean)
- seany! even though he's small in size, he always play the role of big bro in class and protects the bimbs! he's our pimp,fyi.

do you know any of no. 12’s(beeleng) family?
-yesh! i know beeleng's bro.

what will you do if no. 18 (jin sheng) confesses to you that he likes you?
- oh goodness! it's like falling in love with your sister!

what language does no.15(sharon) speak?
- she's billingual!

How old is no. 16( boon xiong)?
-never reveal a man's age! haha.

when is the last time you spoke to no.13( feng soon)
- i can't remember. it's been a terribly long time. i think it was during prom. that is last nov! gosh.

who is no.2(shermaine) favorite band or singer?
- i dunno. bimbs don't talk bout band. maybe it's anastasia or cinderella! is that even a singer or band?!

would you ever date no. 4(Qi ting)?
-hell yeah! i'm been dating her since like 5 years ago.

would you ever date no. 1(melissa)?
-of course! who wouldn't say 'yes'! so many guys are dying to date her!

is no. 19(vivian) single?
-noooo. vian's got a boyfriend! =)

would you ever be in a relationship with no.11(janel)
-you gotta ask willie first! he'll kill me for snatching his queen!

school of no. 3(christel)
- Singapore Polytechnic, School of communication, arts and social science, Dip. in media& communication!! =DDD coolest sch ever!

where does no. 6(wen wei) live?
- somewhere in jurong west that's near church.

what is your favourite thing about no. 5(pei shi)
-shi got a devilish body! she's so tall and slim and her legs are like super duper long!

have you seen no. 2 (shermaine) naked?
- aiyo! of course not!

wht is no.8's(kelvin) nickname?
-'All rights reserved, All wrong rejected. God loves you, i know he does.' wow! double wow!

taged:
1)qi ting
2) bee leng
3) janel
4) torance
5) joshua

=)))

2008-07-22T06:30:00.000-07:00

INSTALLING LOVE

Customer Service Rep: Can you install LOVE?

Customer: I can do that. I'm not very technical, but I think I am ready to install now. What do I do first?

Customer Service Rep: The first step is to open your HEART. Have you located your HEART ma'am?

Customer: Yes I have, but there are several programs running right now.Is it okay to install while they are running?

Customer Service Rep: What programs are running ma'am?

Customer: Let me see....I have PASTHURT.EXE, LOWESTEEM.EXE, GRUDGE.EXE, and RESENTMENT.COM running right now.

Customer Service Rep: No problem. LOVE will automatically erase PASTHURT.EXE from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. LOVE will eventually overwrite LOWESTEEM.EXE with a module of its own called HIGHESTEEM.EXE. However, you have to completely turn off GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM. Those programs prevent LOVE from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ma'am?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Customer Service Rep: My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke FORGIVENESS.EXE. Do this as many times as necessary until GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, I'm done. LOVE has started installing itself automatically. Is that normal?

Customer Service Rep: Yes it is. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your HEART. Do you see that message?

Customer: Yes I do. Is it completely installed?

Customer Service Rep: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other HEARTS in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops...I have an error message already. What should I do?

Customer Service Rep: What does the message say?

Customer: It says "ERROR 412 - PROGRAM NOT RUN ON INTERNAL COMPONENTS". What does that mean?

Customer Service Rep: Don't worry ma'am, that's a common problem. It means that the LOVE program is set up to run on external HEARTS but has not yet been run on your HEART. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in non-technical terms it means you have to "LOVE" your own machine before It can "LOVE"others.

Customer: So what should I do?

Customer Service Rep: Can you find the directory called "SELF-ACCEPTANCE"?

Customer: Yes, I have it.

Customer Service Rep: Excellent, you are getting good at this.

Customer: Thank you.

Customer Service Rep: You're welcome. Click on the following files and then copy them to the "MYHEART" directory: FORGIVESELF.DOC, SELFESTEEM.TXT, EALIZEWORTH.TXT, and GOODNESS.DOC. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also, you need to delete SELFCRITIC.EXE from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My HEART is filling up with really neat files. SMILE.MPG is playing on my monitor right now and it shows that WARMTH.COM, PEACE.EXE, and CONTENTMENT.COM are copying themselves all over my HEART!

Customer Service Rep: Then LOVE is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. One more thing before I go...

Customer: Yes?

Customer Service Rep: LOVE is freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everybody you meet. They will in turn share it with other people and they will return some really neat modules back to you.

Customer: I will. Thank you for your help.

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have you installed love today?
=D

2008-07-22T01:09:00.000-07:00

CSCC camp is FUNtabulous! whee! i've enjoyed myself throughly=DD

i shall not bore you guys with the details but i'll talk about the gist of it!

Funtabulous#1

we played block catching in sch of business! how often can you play block catching in sch! the dark errie compound+late night+cool campmates+a dash of creativity(hiding in the most unimaginable corner)=loads and loads of thrill! once we were captured, we are kept as captive in the toiliet where we were blind-folded and asked to do silly things like kissing the toiliet bowl or hide inside the rubbish bin till we were saved by our groupmates.

Funtabulous#2

i know the way around in school very well now! we played this Royal Battle game where we are suppose to run around the entire school(and i really mean ENTIRE) to search for lightsticks while trying to avoid the devil and restricted zones.

Funtabulous #3

i was sabo to do a lap dance on Edward. everyone was given this paper where we can write something to sabo people. then some dummy wanted me and christel to do a lap dance. but since it wasn't exciting enough, Seto suggested that i'll do it on Edward. i was exceeding embarrased but still did a surface job. (but still better than janel! haha!) but i'm still so much luckier. another pair was sabo to rub their nose against each other for 3 times.

Funtabulous #4

CSCC is never fun without dirty gross game. here's something gross: for this certain group, the guys and girls are to cross-dress! and Aaron look really comical in Mengxi's miniature, semi-transparent FBT shorts!
here's something grosser: 6 guys are sabo to take off their underwear, string it into a skipping rope and take turn to jump in it. think that's gross?
tis is the grossest of them all. Joshua was sabo to wear his grey underwear outside of his pants and run around fc2 shouting ' i have save the world!' haha. (omg. joshua is going to kill me for blogging this!)

Funtabulous #5

we had pyjamas disco party! it was coolios beyond coolios! i wore a white 'ah-ma' pj! almost everyone wore pyjamas and almost all seniors wore the cartoon dress pyjamas. even the guys! imagine the scene: dozens of people clad with cartoon dresses dancing at the dance floor, some even wore such a long boxer/knickers/pants that stick out of the dress. the sight of guys with long leg hair in doremon/hello kitty/mickey mouse pyjamas dress shaking their bum isn't such a pleasant sight after all.
i had a great time dancing with Christel! she's the only 'wilder' people there to dance with. some was too exhausted too dance and took a nap at the back while some couldn't stand the loud music and fainted.
i slow-dance with samuel too! haha. and i tried hard not to step on his feet. it was a great experience and i'm so in-love in with slow-dance song! the 'so-close' song is stuck in my head and i'm hymming it over and over again.

funtabulous #6

i made many new friends and forged a even stronger friendship with old friends. lillies rocks! you guys are the best team ever! *thumbs up!* =DD this camp is really Funtabulous!!!! kudos to the organising comitee!!! =))

i feel so rejuvenated. i feel good! nah nah nah nah nah nah. i know that i would! whee!! random-ness at work again!

2008-07-14T05:52:00.000-07:00

Beverly hill's fashion parade is back. Monday marks the alpha of yet another fashion show. The same routine of slapping on powder, glueing on excessive lusious lip gloss and curling those flicking eyelash. Foodcourt 6 is like a central stage, with runway extended all the way from muslim food stall to fruit stall. there's never any lack of audience, especially visitors who flocked all the way from mars to worship the fashion goddess. Heads high, chin up, fashion goddess struts into the invisible limelight. every movement is critical, every movement will make or break. mini denim skirts, low cut top, ultra-high heels, flashy floral blouse, leather boots.. essential equipments for a war. a war among the resident of Beverly hill. only the top will emerge, only the top survive...

this is the pressure of Living In Breverly's Hill!!!! hahah. i'm just exagerrating. it's so fun to be part of the hilly's resident. most people dress to kill but they're nice at sharing tips. gosh. what to wear tomo!!! arrggghhhh!!! the constant struggle of a poly-ian.

school work though have been weighting me down. i feel like crumbling and let the wind blow the fragment away-till i cease to exist. projects upon projects, assignment upon assignment. when will this nightmare end? i hope it's like some lucid dream that dennis talk about. those that i have control over. give me a moment to emo. =(((((((((((((((

on the lighter side, i'm going for CSCC connection camp this fri-sunday. i bet it's gonna be fun!

but i'll have to miss church. it's baptism wk and membership wk! and interview with 80. oh mann. i'm gonna miss them! and ushering have taken a total different level in my life. we had this usher leader pm yesterday. it was sooo good. i almost want to back out but it's just so divine! i was about to take train home after cg then i meet pinde at the void deck. it just so happen that his cgm was just above my cgm. haha.

it was really a time of seeking God's face. i've been so busy serving that i often neglect Him. but yet he is always faithful and didn't give up on me. without you, i am nothing. in your perfect love, there is no fear. =D

lead me beside still water, over raging seas, over deep valley.

2008-07-09T05:43:00.000-07:00

wow. i haven't blog for ages. i've lost the motivation to blog or rather, i dunno what to blog about. blogging about my daily life is so mundane and i don't have that much pics to post. gosh. i sound like a loser.

oh ya. i have a brillant idea. i shall blog about myself!! haha. do you think you really really know me? here's 10 quirky facts about me!

1) i'm infested with princess-syndrom. i collect tiara and wear them at home. ( sometimes outside) i also have cape and my ribbon and lace wand.

2) i have a tiny wee bit of malay heritage.

3) i have single eye-lid and double eye-lid.

4) i speak to everything. i speak to trees, chair, pencil, cats.. and i imagine them replying and continue a conversation with them.

5) i have an imaginary friend.

6) i'm very sentimental. i can't bear to throw away things. thus, my dear old soft toys are aged 14 and 12 respectively. i have this garang kuni box where i keep all my movie tickets, cards, neo-prints and 2 feather! ( hey BFF! remember the 2 feathers from the chaptey we kicked during racial harmony like 3 years ago? it's still with me!) i have a good memory too!

7) i have a fetish of having sex in the kitchen on my wedding night. (some sort like the one in sex and the city!)

8) i smear food on my face to express how much i love it. especially comfort food like choco donuts and ice cream.

9) i emphasis a lot on punctuality. it's a principle imprinted in my life. i can't stand being late.

10) i smell to judge. my first impressions are done by smelling people. bad people smell in a certain way and good people smell in another way.

think you know me well? maybe not now. i think i'm a bit of FREAKY after reading through the list. that's scary. i didn't know i'm the way i am. the xinyi you know may not be the xinyi i am. alright. enough of these chimology.

time to return to harsh reality and mug for ITB.

the truth hurts.

2008-07-02T05:27:00.000-07:00

hiiiiiiieeeeee!!!!!! i'm back with some photos to share! these are taken after ICP exam at fc4. =DDDDD

behind every smile hides a wedges.

human-turned-bunny

blissful indulgence

All mine!

'nah. share with you lah.'

silly mel look really happy here.

this is logesh's fav-top-no1.-classic-unglamest-fugly photo of me

we heart Kou Fu

this is at New York New York. after our OC project.

i've grown a mossy moussie mousy moustach!!

Mr bronze statue enjoying his companion by the river

bye ppl! i've gotta go. it's been a really busy week wrestling with deadlines and projects. but i'm really enjoying all these. =DD

hereby wishing you a fruitful wk! *cheers*

2008-06-29T07:00:00.000-07:00

we survived! ICP exam was rather manageable after all. =D

but the mountaineous-high, valley-deep project work have taken a toil on me. i'm running a 39.5degree fever now. all thanks to Mr fundamental marketing, Ms info-technology for business and Mdm character development.

great! now, i have a buffet of medicine. there's this green wasabi-flavoured one, red salmon-flavoured, blue blueberry flavoured, white rice flavour and even a bottle of black soy-sauce. what a spread! ok lah. enough of all these sarcasm. i'm trying to blog something constructive before i drown in drowsiness.

i miss school so much! but i guess i'll have to miss school tomorrow. i'll miss chocolate donuts! i'll miss smearing them on my face. i miss my bimbs, himbs and pimp! i miss yellow benches, i miss the dirty smelly toliet, i miss lau kok kok. i miss irritating aunty who force their way to the bus. i miss getting squash on the train and the smell of sweaty armpit. it's amazing how i miss such mundane things.

gosh. i can't think now. it feels like i'm floating in mid-air. i can't even see what i'm typing. this screen looks like a whirl of blur. everything look kinda funny and cute now. it's like in the world of 'Alice in the wonderland'. wow. my room is a wonderland.

before i knock out, here's some my day-out with BFF. it's taken like 2 wks ago but i din't manage to upload it.

wee!! i'm off to look for zZz monster!

2008-06-23T06:25:00.000-07:00

ATTENTTION: DMC04 CLASS FUNERAL
VENUE: SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC, T2157
TIME: 2PM
CAUSE OF DEATH: SPREAD OF SC7701 EPIDEMIC DEISEASE AKA 'I SEE PEE'
THINGS TO BRING: COFFIN AND WILL
P.S: REMEMBER TO WEAR YOUR BEST AS IT WILL BE OUR LAST DAY ON EARTH

Itinery:
1.15pm-meet at dover MRT station( please don't be late!)
1.3opm-reach T2157 funeral parlour
1.45pm-final chance to powder your nose or empty your bladder
2.00pm-annoucement of death+ some prayer session
3.00pm-cremation of body
3.30pm-reading of will

i'm dying tomorrow. this is my final and 101th post. i would like to take this chance to thank my faithful reader for reading my post and tagging my blog faithfully. it's been a great honour to be able to write and entertain you guys.

i would also like to thank my BFF for their love and encouragement. i wouldn't be the fun and jovial Xinyi without them. you girls are indeed the most wondrous gift from heaven! thanks Ting for always being there and is always my best shopping companion. thanks shi for being my spiritual sister n my blossom sister. she never fails to be my best crazy partner. and yes, thanks wen for always being beside me. in my darkest and brightest moment, you're always there for me. love forever!

i also want to thank my bimbos!! even though we are dying together tomorrow, i still wanna thank u girls for all the fun! remember the bimbo congress thingy and the fc6 hunks-feasting sessions? girlfriends are forever! boyfriends are whatever! haha. oh ya. we'll have our postponed slumber party in heaven k? we shall wear hot pink pj!

yes yes. my dearest 04class. we're dying tomo!! there's tis chinese saying 'even though we can't be born on the same day, it's an honour to die on the same date.' see, we're honoured to die as a class!! we can start our radio and broadcast CCA in heaven. oh mann. i can see all the meetings and proposal writing.. what a dread! anyway, it's such a joyful burden working with u guys! =D

to my crush xxxxxx, you never know how much u mean to me. your smile motivate me to got the extra mile and your words encourages me. just looking at you give me strength to move on and i've learnt alot from you, even though you may not know. i'll still doddle your name on the clouds and stare at your msn pic for whole day. i'll still miss you like i always do. muuuaacccck!

now, my cellgroup w387 and my church friends! you guys have been a great source of encouragement to me. i'm really amazed and inspired to see so many of you rising up and doing mighty things in God's kingdom. even though you guys are young, never let age stop you. i believe you guys are destinied for greatness! continue loving God!
and my dear ushers! thanks for always serving faithfully. you guys have the best servanthood attitude and i'm so proud of you all! rmb that ur reward will come in due time if you guys don't give up.

finally and most importanly, i wanna thank my parents for raising me so big.( direct chinese translation) they're forever and forever my love! they never leave me and is always there for me. i'm really fortunate to be in this family and i've never regretted it. i love you mummy =D

all my assets goes to charity. *crossing my finger* ( oh! my unworn dresses, my hot pink heels, my laptop!, my disney princess bedsheet, my bangles and earrings......)

oh mann. i don't feel like dying now.. there're so many things that i'll miss badly if i leave this world. i shall try to live. it's not that bad! i mug today and memorise most of the points. i might still survive! =DD

2008-06-18T21:05:00.000-07:00

here's some camp photos to munch on! (well, maybe not munch but.. you get the idea)

i'm back! life have indeed been busy and in a sense enriching. i've mastered the art of mult-tasking! this is no mean feat! i've been practising to brush my teeth and wash my hair at the same time. and i'm getting good at that!

now, i'm racking my brain at some microsoft excel project while blogging while getting entertained by my classmates. of course, multi-tasking decrease your efficency. BUT i try not to compromise the quality of this post. =D

let me see. *doing it the ahem way*( arms fold across chest, eyebrow raised and eyes perched on ceiling, lips pouted)

i went to sentosa with Cancri on Piah wee's birthday. i had a great time relaxing in nature's spa. the sands were exfoliation-friendly, the waves construct a musical symphonic and the sun is just so glorious!

i went out with BFFs too! twice!! time just flies with them! they're just as awesome and sweet as before. a big congrats to ting!! i'm so happy for u!

BFFs=shopping! this equation is never wrong. i shop like duh! i brough 2 vintage dresses(at an incredibly cheap price!), 2 pair of earrings, 1 pair of shoe and a hairband. hee.

i went for class BBQ at sher's house. Sher's house is wow! there's a splendid seaview from the balcony and a nice clubhouse. the food is the main highlight! the thought of it makes my saliava glands work doubly hard. i'm so proud to be in DMC04! my classmates are a bunch of exciting ppl and my lecturers are so fun to be with.

i went for prayer meeting every morning too for this week! it's really inspiring to see more than 500 people waking up early and coming to the church to pray. some even stayed as far as pasir ris! so proud of them! =D i'm also in the midst of this 21-day prayer thingy where everyone gotta pray at least 1hr daily. it is quite challenging but it has really blessed me greatly. i'm also fasting today! (and my classmates are eating KFC now!!) i'm very encouraged by my cgm. even though they are young, they put God place in their life and desire after spiritual things. jon and alwin even go on a singlehood vow!

there's still 101 more things that i did. but i shall stop here if not this blog would be super duper

ultra long post. i shall study for my ICP exam which is next wk!

till then!!

2008-06-11T06:20:00.000-07:00

hiiiiiiii all!! i'm so excited to be back! i sincerly apologise for not updating for a while.
guess what i've been busy with? yes! i've been busy with the coolest camp in town-inspire stronger'08camp!! and if you've miss the camp, it's your greatest loss!

This is indeed a life-changing, mind-blowing camp! i've been so inspired and pumped up with faith! i've learnt a lot of valuable lessons.
i'm very honored to be one of the assistant team leader in the ever-mighty gideon house. but like what spiderman said, 'with greater power comes greater responsibility'. it is not easy to manage a group of 50 youths with different personality. what's more, there's a handful of new friends and many members were rather reserved. we felt really discouraged in trying our best to hype up the atmosphere and getting them to participate. some flared up while some lose heart. but still, i'm so proud of angel, roslyn, jia ying, eugene, alwin and many others who tried their best. you guys stand in the gap and i really appreciate it!

i also found my long-lost first love with God. i felt so renewed, so fresh. in fact, all i desire is to stay in his presence. there's this hunger for more and more of him. i'm not satisfied. there's so much more that i can do, there's so much more that i can improved on.

there's so so so much more that i've learnt. i don't even know how to express them out in words. it's just so inexpressable(if there's ever such words!).

i shall blog in details once i get the photos k?

meanwhile, there's this video here! it's CRAZY!!! it shows how me and jiaying flow! haha! this is what happens when electricity overload! i present -crazy bollywood! =)

2008-06-05T01:34:00.000-07:00

hi all!! i'm back with an adventure to share! Taiwan is indeed a precious island packed with friendly people, majestic scenic spot, good food and is a shopping paradise! embark on an adventure with me! these photos are only a small slice of the real fun you get in Taiwan. fasten up your seatbelt and here we go!

at changi airport waiting for our flight. our first stop-shilin night market!

it is a busy market jam packed with extra good food! don't despise the humble exterior of the market! all it takes is a little effort in fishing out the goodies. the chao da chicken cutlet is a must try! and taiwan sausauge, extra juicy oyster omelete, fresh durian milk shake, chow tofu for the brave soul and many many more..

our hotel for the night had this interesting bathroom. now i can be a bathroom rockstar!

2nd day

we came to jiu fen pu. it is an old street with traditional food. we tried this super huge fishball and meatball soup and some other local delight. i brough 2 dress, 2 bag and a cap here. heheh

next, we came to this place to look at some rocks that formed because of some geographic process. the flowers in taiwan are really colouful.
check out the tranquil ocean against the mountains as the backdrop.
can you spot the 'fairy's slipper?'

after that, we took a 4-hr train ride to hua lian. hua lian is a place with the native as majiority. we came to this ah mei tribe to enjoy their performance. i joined in this bamboo dance. luckily, the moves were quite simple. if not, a clumsy me would fall in front of everyone.

we stayed in this naruwan hotel. i liked this hotel. it's fully furnish with great amenities.

i went for spa and sauna before going to this kid's area. there's also a game arcade, pool table, ping-pong table, casino and gym.

day 3

we visit this taroka national park. we got to scale the mountains to look at the different rocks. didn't really take photo as there wasn't anything else except mountains and rivers.

day 4

we went to this special restaurant for lunch. the interior is made up of broken boat hull. it is quite cool and environmental friendly.

highlight of the day! jiang hu san theme park!

the fireworks!

we went for tranny show. they are really really pretty!! i feel so inferior after watcing them! the spectacular night light

we stayed in the theme park hotel that night. something errie happened. it was around 1am. my sis and i were laying on the bed, half-dozing off while watching a television show. then the lamp suddenly went on. it's not the circuit problem. but someone push down the button when nobody is around the lamp. it scare me off!!

day 5

we visit this place where we can consult the master for some feng suai stuff. we tried it in the cultural perpective as my family don't really believe in such stuff. we are to give our birth date and names and they will calculate our fate. the master gave me a horrified look and say that i have an extremly 'good' luck with the opposite gender and i'll have a lot of boyfriends. this really scare my dad though. the master is accurate in spotting my character. she say i belong to the mu(wood) element but my mu is too weak. she want me to buy the lion-like figure which cost more than 200bucks. of course i didn't fall for that. i believe that my destiny is in my hands. how can people dictate how many boyfriends i'll have?!

at some memorial hall
the changing guards ritual

we went to wu fen pu and xi men ting. those 2 shopping paradise is the highlight of the entire trip!! let me see. i brough 2 dress, 1 overall, 1 shoe, 2 bag, 1 cap, 1 top, 2 berm, 14bangles, hairclip,necklace.. that's about all. =))

day 6

home-sweet-home!!

i really want to thank God for a safe trip. we are really very blessed. there was this earthquake with a 6+ magnitude in hua lian the day after we left and this serious flood in jiang fu shan immediately after we left. phew. thank God for protection! =)

i miss my friends so much!! it's time again for us to meet up!! =))

2008-05-22T06:20:00.000-07:00

here are the answer to shermaine's quiz!

1) Do u believe in true love kiss
-absoultely! thats what happened to snow white and sleeping beauty!

2) what do you want the most now?
- a warm sincere hug.

3) Do you believe in afterlive?
- not really. i believe in eternal life though.

4) Do you hate your friends sometimes?
- of course not! i love them to bits!

5) what will you do, if a totally not idealistic opposite people confess their feelings to you?
- hmmm. i'll just reject him tactfully and find him a girlfriend!

6)what do u think of the idea of people(even yourself) having crushes on other people while the 'crusher' is attached?
- that's perfectly normal! it happens all the time!

7) what impossible thing would you wish to do?
- jump down from red bridge and haunt the entire SB.

8) do u believe in eternal love?
- "and they lived happily ever after". what do u think?

9) have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
- yeah. lots of them! some drown, some swallow pills, some jump red bridge, some jump MRT...

10) what feeling do u love best?
- the feeling that u're loved and cherised.

11) what are the requirements you wish for your another half?
- wooohh. it's such a long list * stretch hand to max*. 1) tall!(above 180), 2) charismatic,3) cheerful and bubbly, 4) excellent moral values, 5) someone who value humour, 6) generous with praises, 7) eats buffet with me and dosen't complain that i'm fat, 8) wise... the list goes on for another 10min.

12) what feelings do u hate the most?
-lonliness. that sucks.

13) do u cherish every single friendship of yours?
- i do.

14) is there anything u're looking forward to in the next few weeks?
- oh yeeessss! i'm going to taiwan next thurs for a family holiday.(don't miss me!!) and there's this photoshoot thingy for a bag during holiday and church camp and the sleepover slumber party at mel's house and lotsa movie dates!!! =)) so excited!!

15) what is the sweetest thing an opposite gender has ever did to you?
- hmmm. seriously i think there isn't any!! singing and playing some mushy love song on guitar?! if you consider that sweet.

16) who do you hope to always be there for you?
- you know who you are!

17) do u find life meangingless?
- i'm just waiting for my turn to retire to my grave. how meaningful is that!

18) what's your fantasies?
- i always pretend to be a princess at home when nobody's home. then i'll wear my nice dress and tiara and have a tea party with my teddy bear friends. it's really fun. sometimes it get a bit noisy though having to play several role.

19)what's the craziest thing you ever did?
- i punched a ugly girl in the toliet when i was in pri1. she had this bombastic hairstyle and look really skinny with a polka-dotted face. i'm sorry but i'm only 6 then! (sorry to have inflict such misery on you. if you happen to read my blog.)

20) what will you do if your bestfriend fall in love with the same person as u do?
- i'll punch her face, pull her hair and start a cat fight. meeooooww! don't trifle with girls!

instruction: remove a question from above and tag 8 ppl. list down their name and notify them i their chatbox.

i've removed the question 'who do u love' because i love all of u. that's a really silly question. and well, i dun feel like tagging and selecting people. just do it if u feel like doing. no pressure! =)

2008-05-18T07:03:00.000-07:00

in a snap, children became orphans, wife widowed, parents childless. the impact and destruction of mother nature affects millions of people in Myanmar and China. life is just so fragile. it is like a puppet of natural disaster, so vulnerable and helpless.

my heart really goes out to them. especially those innocent children. the images of those little lifeless corpse upset me. all their dreams and hope dash. all left is but a cold body of unaccomplished goals, those words left unsaid, deeds left undone. if, if they could just have another day to live.

what if you know you only have one more day to live?

if i only have one more day to live, i would tell my family how much i love them, i would tell my friends how much they mean to me, i would confess my love, i would spend time with them, i would hug them, i would kiss them, i would cherish every moment with them, i would enjoy being myself, i would live for myself, i would impact somebody's life, i would do things that i've never dare to do, i would resolve every misunderstanding, i would do everything i could to leave a legacy.

if only.. if only those people realise that is their last day on earth. if only those people would have the time to love, if only those people have time to live.

it is a tragic to see children expressing their guilt for being rebellious over their parents grave, a girl who confess her crush over the boy's coffin, parents who offer their apologies to their child for not spending time with them over their tomb...

time and tide wait for no man. don't wait for tomorrow. live today like it's your last day before it's too late.